Fighting spirit

fighting spirit ,this is one of the most underrated qualities people have , the will to never given in ,to never give up , to take thing for as they are and then improve ameliorate .Its easier to give up sometimes ,its easier to walk a different part and forget about what you dream and believe in but you know in your heart your dreams will haunt you and  you would think what if ..

fighting spirit is not just performance on the day ..its the road its working hard and making that hard work count remembering your mistakes and working harder to improve them, you know what gives the greatest pleasure is to do better than you think u can .. to do something you practiced so hard to get through ..to work just a little more harder...

why do u push and do things .. i guess we love something more ...the love of something makes us stronger to push... the brink an inch..and inch by inch the brink becomes a mile and then we think how much have we grown.. 

What is Death

This(Death) in Scientific terms is thought as a flat line on the EEG means cessation of heart beat and brain activity.The illusion of the subjective "I" in the individual conciousness should cease with the cessation of brain waves .Yet the thought of death as passing into nothingness is not a scientific one,the popular imagination developed by the world about death is supposed to be a terminal state ,a void that destroys life ,that swallows it up forever .It is aligned with sleep ,darkness and unconciousness.It is feared by those who want to happy or who feel happy.It is sought by people in misery anguish those in pain..as a final blessed anesthesia.

what is this nothingness,how come something just vanishes into a black hole as if it didn't exist. this nothingness , this realm where we all go, where is it, where does the life force go suddenly.Where did it come from, is it a chemical reaction.

A + B -> C +D  and A +B cease to exist.

even in chemical terms we realise that no reaction is complete totally and it is only some part which is converted, is this a hint to the philosphy the state of life that all is the not gone but some part is left.Is life just like those reactions which we studied in chemistry, the biomolecules , the building blocks of life are based on these reactions , what makes this flow happen.What will happen when we reach a stage in science when we can't die from organ failure will we die then or not.Will we realise if a life force is present whether the concious is transfered.

There is a theory of karma that concious is transfered from one state to another similiar to a state transition that we start from a microorganism and then build into a human and so on

darwin theory of evolution is similiar to this with exception that it thinks of it as time line to the evolution of the humans rather than a whole transition which every being faces.

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Death

death is something when the blood in our body stops to pump..

death is something when the ones who care about you realise you have gone..and they ponder on thoughts you gave them ..a person close to me died recently and he once talking about death told me ..

"after dying people forget you and move on..."

we ponder on thoughts about the person who died how they helped shaped your character ...

i remember how he used to play cricket with us ,how he used to wish me on my birthday without fail.. how he used to take for a sunday ride to hills and stopping and turning back only when we told him to.. In my childhood my best friends were books ,saturday used to be an off i used to go to the library and read whatever i could ..walking back from the library going i used to stop and meet him him in his clinic on my way back , still remember me having coke ..sometimes i used to be tired and he used to drop me home.. 

i went to nationals once.. and you know.. its was kinda lonely..but when i came back.. i saw he was happy.. anytime my name came in the newspaper he called and congratulated me..

whatever i read whatever i learnt he quizzed me on it.. 

when i came back from my bachelors, he asked me to go for my masters abroad as he did .. i haven't till now.. he had four brothers all of them stay abroad.. when he died none of them could come, he knew none of them could come and that part is the one that hurts .... i guess this is the main reason i am still in India...

I would worry about everyone around me too much to go that far..

he was kinda the push my sister had.. when she studied even though she wasn't great but she tried to do her best.. he loved gardening.. at the end of it.. i ask

"How can u repay kindness and unconditional love.."

Tipping points..

metaphors that make our life..some of them mean so much ,as they justify our actions .

they inculcate behaviour.they make us go into a prison ,prison of the past ,,past experiences condition our behaviour of good and bad,prison of the future-expectations 

expectation make us do things which we do.. 

is it just based on this .. past and the future where have i left my present ..

expecting to have a beautiful future ..no present is present.. where do we find true freedom

Pain Vs Pain...

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what drives us...
the pain that we get from not doing or the pleasure of doing
In life we face many situations where we are at ends to decide what path to take, each path leading to different direction a different life.Why do we all at one point on the other face the dilemma of choosing one path over the other.Only one thing being certain that choice we take will take something away from us.
...so we think what to, well i say ask yourself..some questions

whether pain of not doing is greater than the pain of doing
whether the short term gain is less than long term harm ...how does it make u feel , do u feel great while doing it..
these questions are valid in any situation
from exams ,studies ,relationships... any situation just ask some relevant questions important to you...and you will find the dark clouds receding...and sunlight coming through...

Deconstructivist Architecture

Gehry's Guggenheim Bilbao

Koolhaas's student center at the Illinois Institute of Technology, Chicago

Naruto.. what so cool about it..

.....Their is this anime ,you might have watched by the name Naruto...
its a story about a boy who wants to become a ninja and eventually the chief of the village.
what's so great about the character is that he never gives up,never backs down. Even his frds call him stupid but he has that positive effect.Its like the guy won't quit or back down from anything and in doing so he gives hope to many who are either on the verge of quitting or have already quit.He makes them believe again... to believe in themselves their own qualities ..that they can be whatever they want to be.let me tell you about a situation in the series,during his chuunin exams the examiner gives all the genin taking the test a choice
1. Take the tenth question or don't take it (Take it or leave it question)
( i) if u take it and fail you will never be allowed for the exam again
(ii) if don't you and all our frds wil fail...but u can take it next year
what would u do..........
In any situation consider any their are pros and cons...
but what matter to a person is not how many pros or cons but the weight of the pros and the cons.. if a particular con is too great it sabotages the situation ............

what happens when the weight of pros is equally great as a con..
pain of not doing is equal to pain of doing something... that is what we call a catch22...
........we will talk about it later ...how to solve this.. of pain vs pain..of how to take the better choice.