Monday, June 16, 2008

The truth of the cause of suffering

Buddhists maintain that there is no external creator and that even though a buddha is the highest being, even a buddha does not have the power to create new life. So now, what is the cause of suffering?( i think this is debatable but we have no answer to the question of creation..the chicken or the egg who came first.... what i think we all exist .. just in different forms all the time)

Generally, the ultimate cause is the mind; the mind that is influenced by negative thoughts such as anger, attachment, jealousy and so forth is the main cause of birth and all such other problems. However, there is no possibility of ending the mind, of interrupting the stream of consciousness itself. Furthermore, there is nothing intrinsically wrong with the deepest level of mind; it is simply influenced by the negative thoughts. Thus, the question is whether or not we can fight and control anger, attachment and the other disturbing negative minds. If we can eradicate these, we shall be left with a pure mind that is free from the causes of suffering.

This brings us to the disturbing negative minds, the delusions, which are mental factors(when we have headache.. sometimes we hear the phone ringing even though it hasn't... while driving i feel that their is going to an accident but nothing happens.. just a negative thought). There are many different ways of presenting the discussion of the mind, but, in general, the mind itself is something that is mere clarity and awareness. When we speak of disturbing attitudes such as anger and attachment, we have to see how they are able to affect and pollute the mind; what, in fact, is their nature? This, then, is the discussion of the cause of suffering.

If we ask how attachment and anger arise, the answer is that they are undoubtedly assisted by our grasping at things to be true and inherently real. When, for instance, we are angry with something, we feel that the object is out there, solid, true and unimputed, and that we ourselves are likewise something solid and findable. Before we get angry, the object appears ordinary, but when our mind is influenced by anger, the object looks ugly, completely repulsive, nauseating; something we want to get rid of immediately—it appears really to exist in that way: solid, independent and very unattractive. This appearance of “truly ugly” fuels our anger. Yet when we see the same object the next day, when our anger has subsided, it seems more beautiful than it did the day before; it’s the same object but it doesn’t seem as bad. This shows how anger and attachment are influenced by our grasping at things as being true and unimputed.

Thus, the texts on Middle Way [Madhyamaka] philosophy state that the root of all the disturbing negative minds is grasping at true existence; that this assists them and brings them about; that the closed-minded ignorance that grasps at things as being inherently, truly real is the basic source of all our suffering. Based on this grasping at true existence we develop all kinds of disturbing negative minds and create a great deal of negative karma.

In his Entering the Middle Way [Madhyamakavatara], the great Indian pandit Chandrakirti says that first there’s attachment to the self, which is then followed by grasping at things and becoming attached to them as “mine.” At first there is a very solid, independent I that is very big—bigger than anything else; this is the basis. From this gradually comes “this is mine; this is mine; this is mine.” Then “we, we, we.” Then, because of our taking this side, come “others, our enemies.” Towards I and mine, attachment arises. Towards him, her and them, we feel distance and anger; then jealousy and all such competitive feelings arise. Thus ultimately, the problem is this feeling of “I”—not the mere I but the I with which we become obsessed. This gives rise to anger and irritation, along with harsh words and all the physical expressions of aversion and hatred.

All these negative actions (of body, speech and mind) accumulate bad karma. Killing, cheating and all similar negative actions also result from bad motivation. The first stage is solely mental, the disturbing negative minds; in the second stage these negative minds express themselves in actions, karma. Immediately, the atmosphere is disturbed. With anger, for example, the atmosphere becomes tense, people feel uneasy. If somebody gets furious, gentle people try to avoid that person. Later on, the person who got angry also feels embarrassed and ashamed for having said all sorts of absurd things, whatever came into his or her mind. When you get angry, there’s no room for logic or reason; you become literally mad. Later, when your mind has returned to normal, you feel ashamed. There’s nothing good about anger and attachment; nothing good can result from them. They may be difficult to control, but everybody can realize that there is nothing good about them. This, then, is the second noble truth. Now the question arises whether or not these kinds of negative mind can be eliminated.

Friday, June 13, 2008

Deathly hallows

We all have dreams.. some intellectual some arrogant some outright foolish..want buy a mercedes .. a bugatti.. wanna go on a drive at 1 am in a porshe... or a bugatti... feeling free...
anyone read the deathly hallows.. harry potter book
the invisiblity cloak .. the elder wand and the resurrection stone

my hallows
1600 GRE
800 GMAT
100% CAT ......
what are your hallows......where do they lead us.. what do they make us do.. in our pursuit of them do we lose ourselves.. or happiness... do we lie.. do we become selfish self centred in our pursuit of them.. do we forget who are we...

do they really matter.. what are the reasons for doing such things.. to get into a college .. a b school.. a grad school..

arrogance.. that we are better than others...
depression.. that we are worse than others..
that i can do something... and that i cannot do something.. both are the cause of suffering..
suffering comes from death and decay.. existence is due to attachment..attachment is due to thirst.. thirst due to sensation..conscious due to predispositions ..predisposition to ignorance..

buddha eightfoldpart
right viewing, right thinking ,right speaking, right behaving, right vocation, right endeavouring
right mindfulness and right meditating
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suffering...
i suffer from a headache..
acutally you don't suffer from a headache u suffer from repeated thoughts.. u have been thinking in circles afraid to solve a problem.. or unable to solve a problem due to your ignorace about something..with repeated thoughts comes suffering.. think but think smart.. don't over do it...
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Friday, June 06, 2008

To Noelia..

Nobody really cares if you're miserable, so you might as well be happy. ~Cynthia Nelms

If you lend someone $20, and never see that person again, it was probably worth it. ~Author Unknown

I think I could fall madly in bed with you. ~Author Unknown

Invent a past for the present. ~Daniel Stern

Where is the good in goodbye? ~Meredith Willson, The Music Man

In giving advice seek to help, not to please, your friend. ~Solon

I wondher why ye can always read a doctor's bill an' ye niver can read his purscription. ~Finley Peter Dunne


Everybody should believe in something; I believe I'll have another drink. ~Author Unknown

What the daughter does, the mother did. ~Jewish Proverb


Without the past, where is the guilt? And without the future, where is the dread? And without guilt and dread, who am I? ~from "Lamb: The Gospel According to Biff, Christ's Childhood Pal", by Christopher Moore.

To succeed in life, you need three things: a wishbone, a backbone and a funnybone. ~Reba McEntire

Strangers are just friends waiting to happen. ~Rod McKuen, Looking for a Friend (Thank you, Carolyn.)

Having babies is fun, but babies grow up into people. ~M*A*S*H, Colonel Potter, "The Price of Tomato Juice"
I considered atheism, but there weren't enough holidays. ~Author Unknown

Sticks and stones are hard on bones
Aimed with angry art,
Words can sting like anything
But silence breaks the heart.
~Suzanne Nichols


The tattoo attracts and also repels precisely because it is different. ~Margo DeMello, Bodies of Inscription: A Cultural History of the Modern Tattoo Community, 2000


People who are sensible about love are incapable of it. ~Douglas Yates

We live by the Golden Rule. Those who have the gold make the rules. ~Buzzie Bavasi

Some tortures are physical
And some are mental,
But the one that is both
Is dental.
~Ogden Nash

There is much to be said for failure. It is more interesting than success. ~Max Beerbohm, Mainly on the Air, 1946

True friends stab you in the front. ~Oscar Wilde


All the knowledge I possess everyone else can acquire, but my heart is all my own. ~Johann von Goethe, The Sorrows of Young Werther, 1774

People pay for what they do, and still more, for what they have allowed themselves to become. And they pay for it simply: by the lives they lead. ~Edith Wharton

Photography deals exquisitely with appearances, but nothing is what it appears to be. ~Duane Michals

Age is an issue of mind over matter. If you don't mind, it doesn't matter. ~Mark Twain

When you're happy, I'm happy. When you're sad, I'm sad. When you're lonely, call me! ~Author Unknown


Some things become so completely our own that we forget them. ~Antonio Porchia, Voces, 1943, translated from Spanish by W.S. Merwin
It's nice to be important, but it's more important to be nice. ~Author Unknown

Monday, June 02, 2008

Rubaiyat..

The palace where Jamshid held his cup
The doe and the fox now rest and sup
Bahram who hunted game non-stop
Was hunted by death when his time was up.

I resolve daily that at dusk I shall repent
For a night with a cup full of wine spent.
In the presence of flowers, my resolve simply went
In such company, I only regret that I ever resolved to repent.

In life devote yourself to joy and love
Behold the beauty of the peaceful dove
Those who live, in the end must all perish
Live as if you are already in heavens above.

O hark, let us not think of the morrow
Cherish this moment, far from sorrow
Life is a temporal gift that we borrow
Whether dead for ages, or leave tomorrow.

Pursuing knowledge in childhood we rise
Until we become masterful and wise
But if we look through the disguise
We see the ties of worldly lies.

I watched the birds on nature’s stage
Playful, in flight, page after page
Thus opened the doors of my cage
& learnt each moment to fully engage.




Sunday, June 01, 2008

its feels strange.. the rust seems to have set in..
i am unable to ..study as hard as i would want..
i want to put the 15 hours i need to ..without . getting drilled ..have to work on it
have to drill my self to study..
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getting disappointed at somethings.. i guess i have to build things .. slowly one step at a time...
u know most frustrating things in life..
Hemant: hey
8:39 PM me: hey
wazz up dude
Hemant: did u already appeear for interviews
me: wat's going on
na
Hemant: at M$
hmm
they rejected ur profile saying
u already appeared for inteviews
me: are interviews tho hui hi nahi
8:40 PM Hemant: written test ?????/
me: i was contacted for a position
na
no written test
Hemant: then anything
else
me: for redmond office paar
8:41 PM they asked me to fill a questionaire .. paar no contact after that
Hemant: hmm
k
then i'll chk
again
8:42 PM me: i just figured that they must have filled the position ..
Hemant: hmm
k
8:43 PM chal i'll chk
and let u know
me: okay..thanks
Hemant: hopefully it shuld be sorted out
me: ajeeb log hai
Hemant: chalback to ipl finals
yeah
me: yah
Hemant: bye tc :)
me: bye

getting rejected without a hearing.. getting rejected sucks..
okay maybe i ain't interested in the first place but rejection sucks..
rejection sucks period ..
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