BACK TO SCHOOL oops COLLEGE

now the summer holidays are over i go back to college...
the experiences i have gathered in chandigarh in the last month offer a practical insight into the working of this world.I played in a chess tornament after 6 years ..
first day went god 3.5 out of 4 .. that translates to 3 wins and a draw
the next ay i lost a match which normally i would have won.. and after that i lost my chance to win the tournament ..though in the next round i won against a rated player..
and finished with 5.5/7 score .. i thought i underachieved by not coming 1 or 2.

Alliance Franciase-le meilluer

today i write about my experiences learning french in alliance franciase
they say ... by they i mean the wise men saints philosphers etc

learning a new language changes the person.......
i ain't that divine as the person who said those words but i will second it

the first day we met the first of our instructors Madam Vandana Behl ..
typical teacher kinda reminds me of all my years in school..
the demanding types...
cool class started with introduction to french as a language
the country of france etc.. then we switched to greetings
au revior .. a bientot .. i felt i was being taught to speak
like being given the words again.. realised that it is the action rather than the words .. communication is non verbal first and then non verbal..
asking someone names
comment vous vous appelez?
tu t'appelles
...
they next day we met met the other instrutor devyani ..
pretty na! the look on all the guys faces
our hearts were broken when we learnt she is married and too top it all has two kids

any ways she helped us in the pronunciation part

the next day i had this weird problem in saying the word je
to be pronounced as in meaSure
je suis meilleur
so we started with our sentences and our tales of trying to translate

somehow we all feel to give words to things we understand
let us take for example love .. we have given a term to a feeling which some say cannot be described ..
so it is inherent in social life to give words to a particular expression ,relation ..
the same way even though we can understand what most words meant in the class we still chose to translate them .. for our benefit ..(give me the benefit of the doubt.. why cause i am the batsman oops ! sorry the writer that's the cricket blood in me speaking )
so we translated .. repeated after the teacher like irritating 9 year olds

speaking some words which at first doesn't make sense .. expressions such as
je ne comprende pas were my favourites during the duration of the learning process
but then i understood that a language i to be lived ..not learnt
au revior
a bientot

PRESQUE-VU

well it's been like two years when i fainted ,but i still remember the day .. i had 104 degreees centigrade temperature calling up my father and after talking to him .. i just dropped down in front of the PCO.
today in my french class one of my classmates droppped like a feather.. i just remember those days of pain .. of treatment and recovery of trying to run and falling .. of trying to play and don't have a stamina .. of trying to read but didn't see to understand a word
.. of sitting alone and preparing for re-exams
realising that i am not as sharp as i was..

anyways ....
it was something similiar

thanks for all those things

Notion of Simplicity

yesterday was like all other days ....
na it wasn't no single day is like the other ,they say there is nothing which is an exact copy of the original.Incidents accidents etc are all a part of life.
went to kick one of my friends away ..may be forever ..
at the station a blind man asked us for direction to get out of the station... well i just thought may be i can walk in darkness for a while and let him walk in light..
i went outside with him .. walking with him ,i actually never walked with such care before , my cavalier attitude to life suddenly went missing ,the insouciant suddenly became cautious...anyway i asked him where he had to go ,tried to look for a tempo ...
couldn't find one .. asked a riksha puller to take him whenever he want to go ..
or make him take a bus to his destination ...
well i had to go back my friend was there at the station...

well i went back to the station and my friend was there , well he didn't discuss my actions .. well may be he is too used to my thinking or too confused at my actions

in between
want to singing songs of farewell to friends
try The End by the Doors

This is the end beautiful friend the end
This is the end my only friend the end ,of our ellaborate plans the end
of everything that stands the end ,no safety or suprise the end
....
as i was singing and my friend was humming with me
the train starting
and he boarded ..
and a hug..........

...and solitude..........
a hundred years of it

Abstract

life in abstract
exams going on , presque vu with someone.Scope for improvement approaches infinity .

what is meant by being abstract ?
If someone calls you abstract what does it mean?
i gather it meant that i am impersonal in my views and attitude .That i always look at a situation without being actually in it.A outsiders views to personal problem.
Like looking at something without being involved in it.
guess that is why i am satisfied or look satisfied atleast to others, cause i never make it personal.Even when i am involved in something deeply i always act with detachment.Now the previous line seems as if it is contradictory.
What it does is decreases the amount of time to recover from a set back or a gaffe .Cons are that it can lead to another gafffe, never quitting is a very bad habit .though one thing tenacity pays in everything yup eveything and anything...........

Abstinence

Today i had a dream today
i am planning to give CAT this year ,so the IIM's are on my mind like 24-7.
So in the Dream i am admiited to IIM-bangalore ,but i pissed off at the IIM-A reject so still there is no respite feeling low.
So as i don't want to leave any stone unturned i decided to take a break from movies as well,most recently i stopped playing AOC(Age of Empires-that's a popular LAN game )
So i decided to practise total abstinence from vices implies deleted all the movies files on my computer like 20 gb space
no movies for me now, sobriety to be practised from now onwards ,work hard keep my head down .Talk less to people ,don't be so approachable.
keep it simple and straight that is the motto.
read the business page everyday ,be aware .and hope hope ..that you get into A

The Arthashastra

from the Arthashastra - Chanakaya
Hence by overthrowing the aggregate of the six enemies [lust, anger, greed, vanity, haughtiness, and overjoy], he shall restrain the organs of sense; acquire wisdom by keeping company with the aged; see through his spies; establish safety and security by being ever active; maintain his subjects in the observance of their respective duties by exercising authority; keep up his personal discipline by receiving lessons in the sciences; and endear himself to the people by bringing them in contact with wealth and doing good to them. Thus, with his organs of sense under control, he shall keep away from hurting the women and property of others; avoid not only lustfulness, even in dream, but also falsehood, haughtiness, and evil proclivities; and keep away from unrighteous and uneconomical transactions.

Not violating righteousness and economy, he shall enjoy his desires. He shall never be devoid of happiness. He may enjoy in an equal degree the three pursuits of life: charity, wealth, and desire, which are inter-dependent on each other. Any one of these three, when enjoyed to an excess, hurts not only the other two, but also itself. Kautilya holds that wealth, and wealth alone, is important, inasmuch as charity and desire depend upon wealth for their realization. Those teachers and ministers who keep him from falling a prey to dangers, and who, by striking the hours of the day as determined by measuring shadows, warn him of his careless proceedings even in secret, shall invariably be respected. Sovereignty is possible only with assistance. A single wheel can never move. Hence he shall employ ministers and hear their opinion.

A king who is not alert and strong is not respected by his vassals , No king can last without being strong
The strong only respect the strong, strength lies in a disciplined mind
a king cannot let distrust be born in his subjects
As they leader can only lead if he is himself the best
anyone saying otherwise is playing politics

tech news
geekman writes "NASA is paying Rice University $11 million to build a prototype quantum wire that can conduct electricity 10 times better than traditional copper cables at one-sixth the weight. Rice has four years to build a one-meter-long quantum wire, which will be made out of carbon nanotubes. Seems like a lot of money for a little wire, but then again, all the rocket scientists at Los Alamos have only ever been able to put together a four-centimeter nanotube.

CAN WE

Can we turn breath life into stone

can we change the world or just be lost in satires of dissent.We are young and while our youth exist we can think of changing the world.We hear of our country being the great democracy of the world.Cradle of civilizations ,we have a culture that is 4500 years old.Yet it has suffered 200 years of colonial rule and a 1000 years of invasion by tribes from Central Asia.Let me ask are we lambs bred for slaughter,the sapidity of peace forever in or mouths even when we are plagued by enemies by all sides.
Are we just playing dumb are we really effeminate(no offence to the female sex)
yes you can say we existed before them and we exist afterward also.But who guarantees such liberties when this world talks of nothing but power and money.
Can we change India and make it strong for generations.So that posterity can ponder upon our names with pride.

WAR STARTS FROM THE HEAD AND ENDS THERE.

Michelangelo

who was Michelangelo
http://www.michelangelo.com/buonarroti.html


these are his words on completing the sistine chapel

This comes from dangling from the ceiling–
I'm goitered like a Lombard cat
(or wherever else their throats grow fat)–
it's my belly that's beyond concealing,
it hands beneath my chin like peeling.
My beard points skyward, I seem a bat
upon its back, I've breasts and splat!
On my face the paint's congealing.

Loins concertina'd in my gut,
I drop an arse as counterweight
and move without the help of eyes.

Like a skinned martyr I abut
on air, and, wrinkled, show my fat.
Bow-like, I strain toward the skies.

No wonder then I size
things crookedly; I'm on all fours.
Bent blowpipes send their darts off-course.

Defend my labor's cause,
good Giovanni, from all strictures:
I live in hell and paint its pictures.

Michelangelo Buonarroti

The Birthday

Yesterday we had a party,saurabh birthday and it was great.I went to the temple before joining them and i was suprised to see so many people in the temple(i realised navratras(fasting time for hindus) are going on).Funny thing how people suddenly remember gods in exams ,in times of distress,and in festival times.There were lot of commotion and too many people to find peace but you can find peace and silence anywhere.
i reached Friends "the cafe" and everyone was playing dumb charades and it was all laughs for a while and then like all other days ,the day came to a end but not without a few hiccups -
like thinking you lost your mobile in your bag (heheheh, manasi- so cute na), naman and aakash (trying to miss the bus for a kulfi worth 2 rupees).
Some vedic maths in the morning
Just listening to some music in the morning ,there is nothing like listening to classic ock in the morning.U2 and Led Zepplin are great,vocals the music ,the pitch .

the song by led zepplin ,this song reminded of someone i know.

Stairway to Heaven


There's a lady who's sure all that glitters is gold
And she's buying a stairway to heaven
And when she gets there she knows if the stores are closed
With a word she can get what she came for

Woe oh oh oh oh oh
And she's buying a stairway to heaven

There's a sign on the wall but she wants to be sure
And you know sometimes words have two meanings
In the tree by the brook there's a songbird who sings
Sometimes all of our thoughts are misgiven

Woe oh oh oh oh oh
And she's buying a stairway to heaven

There's a feeling I get when I look to the west
And my spirit is crying for leaving
In my thoughts I have seen rings of smoke through the trees
And the voices of those who stand looking

Woe oh oh oh oh oh
And she's buying a stairway to heaven

And it's whispered that soon, if we all call the tune
Then the piper will lead us to reason
And a new day will dawn for those who stand long
And the forest will echo with laughter

And it makes me wonder

If there's a bustle in your hedgerow
Don't be alarmed now
It's just a spring clean for the May Queen

Yes there are two paths you can go by
but in the long run
There's still time to change the road you're on

Your head is humming and it won't go because you don't know
The piper's calling you to join him
Dear lady can't you hear the wind blow and did you know
Your stairway lies on the whispering wind

And as we wind on down the road
Our shadows taller than our souls
There walks a lady we all know
Who shines white light and wants to show
How everything still turns to gold
And if you listen very hard
The tune will come to you at last
When all are one and one is all
To be a rock and not to roll
Woe oh oh oh oh oh
And she's buying a stairway to heaven

There's a lady who's sure all that glitters is gold
And she's buying a stairway to heaven
And when she gets there she knows if the stores are closed
With a word she can get what she came for

And she's buying a stairway to heaven, uh uh uh.

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thanks for all those things

Nameology

hey just got a mail from one of my friends and i was suprised how acccurate the anaylsis is.The anaylsis for the letter V is as given below.

Does your name begin with: V
You are individualistic & you need freedom, space & excitement. You wait till you know someone well before committing yourself. Knowing someone means psyching her/him out. You feel a need to get into his/her head to see what makes him tick. You are attracted to eccentric types. You believe that age is no barrier. You are good at responding to danger, fear & suspense.

i always pysche out girls before i commit,try to check their nerves before i am really interested,normally it starts with beiing cool then suddenly i am all over ,inside her head etc
age is no barrier comment is personified in me ;);)

fear (heheheh..... )danger (my territory........) suspense (hello what else is life0 well i really not bothered about them,they are for lesser mortals.

FEAR

What is Fear?its cause and effects
Fear is defined as a feeling of agitation and anxiety caused by the presence or imminence of danger.Desire is always preceded by a feeling of want ,fear has its root in an apprehension of mishap,while anger ensues when someone interferes with the attainment of one's desire or when one's will is not carried out.Anger leads to pain.Pain can occur due to physical injury,disease or emotional disorder.Neither physical injuries nor disease nor emotions are permanent,and a wise man should understand the temporal state and understand that pain is but temporary.This pain leads to suffering of the mind.Only solution is discipline your mind and your senses.
Disciplined mind is one who neither overeats nor who observes complete fast.One who is regulated in diet and recreation ,regulated in performing actions,regulated in sleep and in wakefulness .
If you conquer your fears only then you can truly understand freedom and liberty.Otherwise you will be like soul wandering in limbo,who neither knows life nor death.They say when some people when they die they never have lived at all.So decide whether you wish to live.



IT front

IEEE Spectrum has an interesting article on how to fix the U.S. patent system. It starts with an example of how broken the system is, with Smuckers suing a small company for crustless PB&J. It has a great overview of how the system has evolved and how much it favors the big patent holders, and suggests 3 specific fixes: 'create incentives and opportunities for parties to challenge the novelty and nonobviousness of an invention before the PTO grants a patent,' examine the important patents meticulously; don't waste effort on the unimportant ones that can be ousted early, and for examining prior art, use judges and special masters rather than uninformed juries.

http://edition.cnn.com/2001/WORLD/asiapcf/auspac/07/02/australia.wheel/

try to check out the above link and you will realise you can patent the wheel.If it goes on like this then crop rotation or other fundamental advances in civilization will be patented soon.


Personal

Have lots of assignments and a book report.
Hope this goes smoothly and well.
thanks for reading the words written above.

Do i feel wee bit heavy

US scientists have managed to measure the mass of a cluster of xenon atoms at just a few billionths of a trillionth of a gram - or a few zeptograms. The record measurement is in the mass range of individual protein molecules, and the detection was made using sensitive scales developed at Caltech.It is hailed as another big leap forward for nanotechnology.
Now i just feel being constituted of so many tiny atoms.We all are made of so many different particles and still feel as one ,diversity leads to unity.I think that is what everything points to.From diversification of fields which are constitutes of the society as a whole to division of humans on basis of caste creed even ability is a delusion.

On the IT front
Microsoft Corp. on Thursday escalated its efforts to crack down on Internet fraud, announcing that it filed more than a hundred lawsuits aimed at identifying people the company says targeted its e-mail and Internet service customers through "phishing" scams.
how many of us have got some spams asking us to manage financial data asking us for credit card numbers and personal data. It is a form of online fraud that uses authentic-looking e-mail messages and Web sites to trick computer users into giving up their personal and financial data. Security experts tracked 2,625 fraudulent Web sites and more than 13,000 new and unique e-mail lures in February

in between
highlights of the mid semester exams
character and language is different
point space is not same as cartesian space
an angle cannot be given in terms of cos theta if its atan2 function exist
one liners not allowed in correcting sentences and justification has to be atleast 3 lines long
Plus you have to write neatly and within the active vocabulary of the teacher..

On a personal note

for all those things
thanks

Motivation

Motivation is just another word for following one's instincts.


For the last one month i have been pondering on whether to pursue an MBA or a MS.This has been my bane and many others like me who in third year have no clue.To be or not to be(heard of shakespeare) that is the question.I actually started preparing for GRE
last year but my parents don't seem excited about this at all.So all i got out of it was a vocab and a loads of knowledge on various topics.Then thinking if i want to do an MBA then better atleast learn what it's all about, i interned at IIMA last summer to understand what is an MBA from the best in India.I learned its a combination of thinking smart and producing more results.Analysing situation etc (i thought this seems easy ,i have been doing it in chess for so many years) are the core basis.
Anaysis of worksheets ,balancesheets,spreadsheets etc etc ,case studies by the number
sitting in the library for 6 hours daily form a nice routine.Hey no wonder they call it the toughest B school in India woking 15 hours a day ,no one sleeps more than 6 hours(did i say six its lower in most cases) suprise quizzes assignments.Did i mention the fact that you have come to class to discuss rather than to be taught.All chapters have to read in advance.Discipline takes a new form and timings are reespected ,you cannot get late in class etc etc you cannot fall sick ,100% attendance is compulsory.

coming to my side

I know that i am not perfect for a s/w engineer's job.But i know i can be very persuasive and unyielding .I can intuitively understand a lot of situations besides
my secret ambitions of owning mansions, jets etc... Now I am motivated enough to get what I want.So i decided on PGP in management or an MBA.
Techniques for motivation
1. Try a SWOT analysis. Follow this link:http://www.quickmba.com/strategy/swot/.
2. Meditate and try and understand what you want. Try to think of some events that have shaped your life(this is tough i mean really tough if you have some cobwebs in your life).Or Why do you think you are what you are?
3. The Real question:Why do you want what you want? Is it just money, fame,power sense of belief etc. or something more? And how badly do you want it? This question appears in different forms in all interviews. 'Why MBA' is just a form of this question. Believe me, it is worthy to know this.
4. One sincere suggestion is: don't think about the problems that you will need to face when you think about above 3 questions. At this step, you will know where you should ideally be. Be tough to yourself and don't fall into fallacies like 'since i can dream all day, I can be a dreamer.
5. Now that you know where you should be, try to visualize. Well, it is true when they say that visualization is one thing that keeps humans above other forms of animals. There can be endless arguements on this point, but plz ...
I try to visualize in detail whatever I want. And when I get up from my session, I am roaring to go.It is like seeing before you do it,instincts etc all come from his tautological process ,that you see yourself again and again in that position
6. Get to know the marvels, be it a musical piece or a written word. I usually think about this "I was once a sperm who beat million others". Funny though true...
7. Think what can be and not just what is. It is a powerful statement though stolen from 'The magic of thinking BIG'.
8. If your lack of motivation is because of other powerful distractors, try praying. And do it consistently. You will definitely feel the positive result in a week or so...

references
ankur sanghi

Reconciliation

Reconciliation means adjustment
synonyms include adaptation, compliance, composition, compromise, conformity, fitting, modification, reconciliation, settlement..........
well that is what the day after you break your dreams,break a relationship after making it sacred.Relations turn from sacred to profane too often.

Just returned from home a few days ago,all time at home was used up in visiting relatives.Hardly anytime for friends(sad na) except the last day.
so i had to reconcile being a pet to my niece,no girl has ever forced me to hold hands,get down on my knees ,carry her around etc and she did it in a day.Well it wasn't bad cause she loves me as no other girl would.
During the return journey i met a doctor who asked me a question on the changing scenario,how much does the environment of the city affect the educational institutions ?

Omerta

According to the World Book Dictionary
OMERTA is a Sicilian code of honor which forbids informing about crimes thought to be affairs of the person involved.I started the book by Mario Puzo in the morning and slept at 2 in the night,it was like anyother Puzo novel which signifies honor above everything else.
It talks about reasonable men who know that this world is not based on laws,that everything written in law is not enforced (cause some things are for the intellectuals to ponder about,utopia is a myth ).
Pretty much a potboiler ,with the essence of "The Godfather".But it is the important adages and wisdom that books give that is more important.
The lessons out of the book are as follows

"Never pass if you can dribble"
"Never Quit when you are 20 points down in the last quarter"
and "Never go out with a woman who has more than one cat"

i understood the first two but couldn't understand the third one ,although i think i better take his word for it.
Oh i missed my yoga time cause of this book ,got up late at 7:31 am
:((
but shit happens
in between talking on the phone is a pleasure with some girls(read some)
Dares are the most innocuous of crimes commited by a guy
someone listening.anyone

Three guys, a girl and loads of fun

The last time i talked about The Friends it was about Rahul etc(see the blog about the friends below) now i talk about my friends.
Well lately we have been hanging a lot together which i might add is a pleasure, Subhashish Chakraborthy (shomu as well call him besides other pseudoyms as we call him) is the compassionate and extremely funny guy(if you aren't used to his type of humor his company can be mortifying)
the thing about subashish is that he juxtaposes heckling, kiding, lampooning, makes sport of, mocking, parodizing, ridicules, satirizes, teasing and makes you think isn't this so much fun
,Aakash gaur(aka the shahid kapur clone) is sweet naive guy ,he is cute and sweet,yes girls! cute and sweet :)).He is kinda friend whom i won't mind having the trenches with me.
Can't say anything about me it would be a battery of lies but i still like to say that i am like clay mould me as you can.Yesterday i was so drowsy but still i couldn't refuse the offer of missing a outing with them(we went to a see a movie "Black" nice na and .
Abhipsita Singh(iru , pista etc) brings balance to it all , she is the madame and brings order if necessary though for the last few days she has been enjoying our rif raf and friendly bantering.She has been sick(migraines) and we, aakash me and shomu have been trying to cheer her up and i guess its working cause she is looking better(may be its just the medicines and sleep she has been taking).
on a personal note,the thing is that i can get depressed very easily and these guys have been making my life great.
thats all folks for today

Mr.Mojo Risin

Anagrams seem to be flavor of the day today.
Every heard about The Doors front man Jim Morrison,when i heard about the doors ,i thought of the Doors of Perception ,Doors which seperate who and who,strangers basking in the crowds,seperated by the very limitation of their names.
Some people wish to change their names but they seem too attached ,others use anagrams Mr.Mojo risin comes to Jim Morrison,i was wondering what would be anagram for my name or yours.
yesterday i had a day out with my friend aakash ,while relaxing he mocked while watching a video clip from some new movie whether wearing such clothes and dancing is a realistic.I answered that it is not reality but fantasy that movies sell,we all have fantasies even though we never may want to fulfill them in reallife.

Varun Khullar

Hun
Hull
Lunar
Raul
Run
Arun
what words can you make out of your name!!!!

The Friends

Most of you might have watched at one time or another the popular sitcom The Friends but you would have never faced the Friends in real life.Well i ain't talking about the friends in the sitcom but the so called friends clan of IIITA Rahul Suchit Shekhar and Ashish.These guys are like glue, they study together ,they do projects together, they eat, sleep besides other things together.


So except doing projects together ,applying for internships ,they also watch the series The Friends everyday during lunch and dinner.During the hedonistic pleasures they entrall in,I have sometimes enjoyed their company othertimes better not give words to misery personified.......

So as it happened day before yesterday ,i was sleeping peacefully and suddenly the friends appeared in the my room ,pleading with me to let thm watch friends on my PC(which i refused! sorry guys)
But one thing i didn't mention was that the friends never give up,they were back the next day with plates from the Mess in the afternoon.
mmoral of the story
" persistence pays"

the friends motto is pretty clear and you can't ignore even a fool if he is laloo and they are my friends "The Friends".

The Waste Land

While reading Catch 22 by Joseph Heller,i came across a paragraph in which it was mentioned "no poet makes money except perhaps TS Elliot".I just looked up the name on google and came across The Wasteland a piece of poetry.

March has been a revelatory month for me, i did somethings which i never though i would be capable of.I am little bemused by my actions.I have been getting up in the morning at around 4,started doing yoga(thanks to my roomate) then head to the gym for some warm up exercises,i even reach classes before time(now this is weird) and have loads of time for basketball in the evening .
You can ask what the big deal about this all ,well the time i get up now is the ime i used to sleep,i used to play AOC (computer games for the rustics) all night long which i have left.Everything i used to do for the last three years seems a distance past.

oh! in between we had a intra college cricket tournament at the our college IIITA , we reached the finals and choked big time (i got a hat-trick and a five wicket hall,god i choked!!!).The cut short story is that we lost by 8 runs and i was the last man standing.