NEW YEAR

what did i do on new year eve...
unlike the typical youth of today.. i like to be with my family.. meet everyone.. all those relatives i hardly get to meet ..you might say everyone does.. i say its my choice to betheir and its not forced on me..
i went to chandigarh club.. for a ride.. in between the dinner party.. at my father's sisters place..
went inside.. saw a few familiar faces. .. i guess the two cousins i had with me wanted to do some bird watching..i ws like okay.. just do it..
sonu nigam was singing.. people were dancing..i saw the time and told the others to return.
when we went back our car.. was covered from all corners.. by others.. cars . i tried to push them..but couldn't ..8 cars.. in gear.. i was like why.. how could it be possible.. i was looking for avenues when.. a car went into a pit....
it was an kinda old guy with his family..two daughters.. hardly someone who can pick a car from a pit(the elder one was kinda pretty:(..)
anyways.. after some time were able to pull the car of the pit..got a heart felt thanks.. and smile..
good end to a heart breaking .. embroiling year..

UP and DOWN

everyday is filled with things ..
we do some chores... do simple things.. some complicated ones.. some demons we have.. in our past.. what i am beginning to observe are the things.. which strike out.. we do some things the same way everyday.. pic up the same phone.. type the same way on the computer everyday.. everything in our life is about convenience .. our comvenience.. I . the one who thinks .rather hopes that everything should go my way.. and sometimes resorts to something unethical to achieve the I's perspective....ideal.. I deal..that is what ideal means literally.. the deal which the I makes..
what is right ,what is wrong..
do i know..
yes or no..
but when i answe my question again again.. then .. sometimes i reach .. my reason.. frm my senses.. sometimes.. reach my soul..
and everything around me .. is like a place..which i observe..
see thngs as they are..not engrossed.. like generally i am..
i wonder.. how to define.. everything i fell how to write everything .. i understand..most things..
.......
but yes..
yes..
if u feel something is good.. if u like something. u will definately dislike something...that is ultimate truth..

IDIOTS PRICE OUR DEVICES

sharman networks
Vanuatu..LEF ..liberte egalite fraternite ..

what is necessary is to amke sure that being dishonest is not too easy..

Design is not about looks but about understanding how something works inside
its is to get what is it..

what does JK.. stands for

well we had long awaited team building training..
well it was fun great fun ...
lesson no 1
strategies .. more than one way of doing things..
no 2
your win should be so clear that the market can't say its foul.(though i really don't believe it..all companies have to pay lawyers.. the law i flawed as such)
no3
suppoort enable empower..
no4
its difficult to control people .. yes in hierarchy its easier..but very difficult with equals and superiors..
u have to convince them..u have to give them stuff to do.. which makes them busy and doesn't leave any room for going haywire
more later

iwoz

i read this book by steve wozniak the founder of apple(i hope u heard of ipods)
he asked people who invent to work alone.. to believe that its possible to build something alone.We overemphasize team spirit in the coporate culture i think .. i agree the power of a team but .. i believe that einstein wrote about relativity.. newton wrote the laws .. a commitee never invented anything .. a individual did..so work alone he says
he talked about patience and about doing things one at a time.. small steps..

Brazilian Best Wishes

carmel banana split
coffee .. more coffee..
specs.. more specs
.....
looking for new phone..

Treat At the FOOD court

what did i do today
well we went to the food court today today to have lunch.. rahul me and shweta..
attended two presentation on iur iuv.. and one on MCC hand..
started with iwoz.. trying to understand the concious of person who made Apple..
filled a form which i thought i never would
.. going home off for the day..

The Keymakers

Iwoz..
Steve WOZ..
Icon
Steve jobs..

the key makers to personal computers

google didn't invent search..microsft didn't write the first operation system..
its not about the first..

Most of us .. have rather have given a lot of undue important to the first. ..
first what.. u may ask
.. first time u kissed, the first time u broke up, the first time u had sex.. the first time u did something .. ....but we don't realise is that the first time is just the beginning , its not the end ,i won't write the cliqued "life goes on"
everyday is something new... everything new thing we think about .. or create is a new beginning.. and life will have more of them
The emphasis on the past must go in our lives as we proceed towards a new day
attachment leads to suffering they said ..

Its not about the Samosa ......

Bloppers done by some guys..
one of frds was offered a samosa by a guy trying to win her affections ..( reminds me of Amitabh's movie (he offered a watermelon) )
well do u think a girl will go out for a movie with u ifu offer her a samosa..
please answer in yes or no
well i say .. offer golgappe.. that's better ..
jokes apart.. its not about the victory but the chase..
its not about reward its about the journey..its important how u played.. what did u learn what sort of connection was achieved by you during the journey rather than the sucess or failure of it....
when everything ends some day or the other..
everyone knows that every connection every feeling has an end and a start .. still we long for permanence ..the ultimate truth of life is death.. the end of everything is right in its beginning..
so do what deem fit.. and the journey.. will seem much smoother

disclaimer : i am talking to my self .. no one is expected to read the above.. thank u

The Google story..

100 pipers
a fling..
shivamani@rivoli gardens..

lays.. onion style...
Apostolos wrote a poem and sent it to the whole company he didn't know yet.:Teoma..

local popularity..
global popularity..
hamster rank page.
so many things i wanna do..

telecom

Shivaji's Black Horse..

This is about a session of ethics that me and my fellow colleagues endured and suffered.. .our concious battered by probing questions ,trying to wake us from what we think we are .
WHO ARE YOU!
thw question posed before us and we autologically answered with the class name ,attributes(this tall ,thin.. health fat.. ) and operations(engineer.. coder.. ) ..some even declared themsleves to be void function(that they aren't sure of what they are).
He asked us what makes us so diferent from the other person..sitting next to us
well we all think we are different from each other don't we . It kinda makes us sane.. the thought .. that we are different from the other person.. that we are individuals .. and not just a mass.. who are distributed thinking....pretty much think the same way and want the same things..
well when asked to define ourselves we all come up with some rhethorical answers.. that.. i makes u think that u don't know yourself..
logical... values
practical honesty respect...
romantic.. conservative..
intelligent..
kind
generous
...
...
are we really those things.,those words or we think so that we conform to those definitions ,why because we think its bad to be Different.. don't we realise that everytime somebody has a question for you ,you are enable to answer.. and end up saying i don't know.. but the same question posed to somebody else we have a answer ready before the person answers.. why..
the urge to cut short people when they speak..
what do we mean by respect..
one of my colleagues said that "if the other person respects me i will respect him"
well is that what respect is.. a sort of barter...like what a business man does..
is that what is know as respect.. which depends on trade.
respect comes from deeds from actions..
some people consider.. their word to be everything.. (reminds me of memnon of rhodes..)
we all respect reliable people.People who have integrity might be morally good or bad but they are respected.

The Necessity of Atheism

P.B.Shelley

"If he is infinitely good, what reason should we have to fear him? If he is infinitely wise, why should we have doubts concerning our future? If he knows all, why warn him of our needs and fatigue him with our prayers? If he is everywhere, why erect temples to him? If he is just, why fear that he will punish the creatures that he has filled with weaknesses? If grace does everything for them, what reason would he have for recompensing them? If he is all-powerful, how offend him, how resist him? If he is reasonable, how can he be angry at the blind, to whom he has given the liberty of being unreasonable? If he is immovable, by what right do we pretend to make him change his decrees? If he is inconceivable, why occupy ourselves with him? IF HE HAS SPOKEN, WHY IS THE UNIVERSE NOT CONVINCED? If the knowledge of a God is the most necessary, why is it not the most evident and the cleares"

Truth

Truth is not a ritual or a formality. truth is duty ..whenever we see truth fading.. we should protect it..even if it menas going to war.. when there is choice between partition and going to war .. i say go to war.. come make that war your dharma..they talk of politicians and that what has been done by the past is too great a burden.. those who think of past as a burden how will they live in the present and reap the rewards that present reaps with karm. The past is not present to drink either the poison or nectar.. the reason i say this is that if u have got a weak foundation from the past then change it. cause the past would have never become the past if it could survive the change, the wheel of time.All of us, our clothes are somewhere or the other are stainded by our ego.. that is something we all know... i this i that.. the cause of desire.. of thinking something is good something is evil.. the ethics of right and wrong morality of good and evil..
what i wish to bring forth is that the parliament nor the judiciary is greater than the nation.. loyalty to the parliament can take you away from the..nation.. if u keep looking at the government and blaming it for everything when would u look at the NATION.I ask to look at your motherland.. and not at some propaganda not at some leader...

Altruism or Darwinism....part2

we discussed the main points of indian philosphy.. and they sound like quantum physics to people ,indian philosphy of altruism ,of considering guest as god etc.. is light years away from darwinism.It requires a saintly mind to understand what givin is,what it means to pray .. to bless someone.. to be blessed.If we are selfish can we bless someone.. or feel blessed..
can we consider the conflict of animals.. of a hawk and a dove.. if both persons in a conflict act as hawks we assume they divide the benefit...well the stronger gets more benefit.... suppose if one of them is greater.. more aggressive than the other then he receives the major share.. other case they both get the same amount..now we consider what is stable evolutionary state ..two person competing doesn't seem stable..
but it is ...
consider kin theory.. that even though we aren't directly related like people having common goals .. we do see people who are truly altruist.. but are they help their kin..it might be the bond of country.. of friendship.
Kin selection is based upon the fact the gene pool of the particular individual is increased.If a person helps his kin to procreate even without directly helping he is doing what we call self altruism.
Self altruistic behaviour increases the gene of particular kind hence showing darwinistic altruism.to be continued

MAyTrix..

what wouldbe maytrix.. well during this may of vellagiri .. and freedom.. long overdue.. i spend my time this sunday at the govt museum chandigarh ..
i saw a jain godess in a dancing pose.. the culmination of vishnu and shiva..
well i saw them in stone..but some artists do create life in stone.. feel like giving life to stone..more i saw artifacts from a different age.. a pillar of strength broken .. still decorated by carvings belonging to 10th century ..then i assimilated my thoughts ..i saw a most beauiful tree.. and i went to under its shade
sat for a while..

Altruism or Darwinism....

We talk to heroes in unsaid words ..sometimes unsung heroes are. . cause history is written by those who are able to survive it and the martyr is either glorified or forgotten.Never a true tale spoken never a true confession made but today we talk of a different world one of altruism as its base.
We have been taught to be negative and believe that altruism is the higest virtue,contradiction it seems,we think it wrong to certain thnigs even though we haven't anaylsed them at all.We understand synchronization ,but our thoughts are random.The human mind tendency is to be selfish, charles darwin in his treatise on Evolution of species pointed that selfish chromosome will survive in the long run and the heroes of today become extinct.Though we still see altruism alive and flurishing though in selfish domain.We call it selfaltruism, do we really understand self altruism or not.

Let me consider the Indian Philosphy..
be free from personal bias ..,we are taught act without desire or greed and we become free from the corruption of action.,action free from desire..,action is action but what is free from desire its inaction ..
the non doer does not ..
the knowledge the fire of knowledge burms ambition greed desire,temptation anger sorrow gain loss..
this is the life of a person such a person life is an offering to god.
what is offering..
some people offer money some offer action..
when somebody makes his work his actions his penance then his life becomes an offering..
but the best is knowledge the offering in knowledge.. because its is knowledge which differentiates between good and bad,desireless action ..
to be continued

How true...

Your Birthdate: October 24

You understand people well and are a natural born therapist. A peacemaker, people always seem to get along when you are around. You tend to be a father or mother figure to friends, even to those older than you. You enjoy your role, and you find that you are close to many people. Your strength: Your devotion Your weakness: Reliance on others for happiness Your power color: Lilac Your power symbol: Heart Your power month: June

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Last few days..

well today we had our last class ..in b.tech.. iiita classes are at an end... and the only thing left is exams term papers and project submission.Today got up late...aakash came into the room ... just had lunch and went to class.. we had our last class.. studied decision trees and game theory.. .sometimes things hit u..
u know everything has an end and so let's toast to the glory days..

Sad Eyes...

this something... a piece ..
well its just something i am going to write..
listening to some song playing on winamp....
sad eyes ..

talking in whispers...
in starry nights..
i ask u .. and u say u're doing fine..
but i will anyway sit outside the door..
sad eyes .. say everything..

i don't know .. if i ever been loved..
but the hand that touched me...my heart changed..
a little angry..
a little vain..
i wanna push u .. and i will.. hell i will
i wanna take u.. and i will..
i don't why would u ever lie to me.. been little untrusty..
just don't stand there..
walk besides me.. i wanna push u..
hell i will..

does'nt make a better a man.. but i will..
don't want to make this day go away..