Monday, April 04, 2005

FEAR

What is Fear?its cause and effects
Fear is defined as a feeling of agitation and anxiety caused by the presence or imminence of danger.Desire is always preceded by a feeling of want ,fear has its root in an apprehension of mishap,while anger ensues when someone interferes with the attainment of one's desire or when one's will is not carried out.Anger leads to pain.Pain can occur due to physical injury,disease or emotional disorder.Neither physical injuries nor disease nor emotions are permanent,and a wise man should understand the temporal state and understand that pain is but temporary.This pain leads to suffering of the mind.Only solution is discipline your mind and your senses.
Disciplined mind is one who neither overeats nor who observes complete fast.One who is regulated in diet and recreation ,regulated in performing actions,regulated in sleep and in wakefulness .
If you conquer your fears only then you can truly understand freedom and liberty.Otherwise you will be like soul wandering in limbo,who neither knows life nor death.They say when some people when they die they never have lived at all.So decide whether you wish to live.



IT front

IEEE Spectrum has an interesting article on how to fix the U.S. patent system. It starts with an example of how broken the system is, with Smuckers suing a small company for crustless PB&J. It has a great overview of how the system has evolved and how much it favors the big patent holders, and suggests 3 specific fixes: 'create incentives and opportunities for parties to challenge the novelty and nonobviousness of an invention before the PTO grants a patent,' examine the important patents meticulously; don't waste effort on the unimportant ones that can be ousted early, and for examining prior art, use judges and special masters rather than uninformed juries.

http://edition.cnn.com/2001/WORLD/asiapcf/auspac/07/02/australia.wheel/

try to check out the above link and you will realise you can patent the wheel.If it goes on like this then crop rotation or other fundamental advances in civilization will be patented soon.


Personal

Have lots of assignments and a book report.
Hope this goes smoothly and well.
thanks for reading the words written above.

Saturday, April 02, 2005

Do i feel wee bit heavy

US scientists have managed to measure the mass of a cluster of xenon atoms at just a few billionths of a trillionth of a gram - or a few zeptograms. The record measurement is in the mass range of individual protein molecules, and the detection was made using sensitive scales developed at Caltech.It is hailed as another big leap forward for nanotechnology.
Now i just feel being constituted of so many tiny atoms.We all are made of so many different particles and still feel as one ,diversity leads to unity.I think that is what everything points to.From diversification of fields which are constitutes of the society as a whole to division of humans on basis of caste creed even ability is a delusion.

On the IT front
Microsoft Corp. on Thursday escalated its efforts to crack down on Internet fraud, announcing that it filed more than a hundred lawsuits aimed at identifying people the company says targeted its e-mail and Internet service customers through "phishing" scams.
how many of us have got some spams asking us to manage financial data asking us for credit card numbers and personal data. It is a form of online fraud that uses authentic-looking e-mail messages and Web sites to trick computer users into giving up their personal and financial data. Security experts tracked 2,625 fraudulent Web sites and more than 13,000 new and unique e-mail lures in February

in between
highlights of the mid semester exams
character and language is different
point space is not same as cartesian space
an angle cannot be given in terms of cos theta if its atan2 function exist
one liners not allowed in correcting sentences and justification has to be atleast 3 lines long
Plus you have to write neatly and within the active vocabulary of the teacher..

On a personal note

for all those things
thanks

Friday, April 01, 2005

Motivation

Motivation is just another word for following one's instincts.


For the last one month i have been pondering on whether to pursue an MBA or a MS.This has been my bane and many others like me who in third year have no clue.To be or not to be(heard of shakespeare) that is the question.I actually started preparing for GRE
last year but my parents don't seem excited about this at all.So all i got out of it was a vocab and a loads of knowledge on various topics.Then thinking if i want to do an MBA then better atleast learn what it's all about, i interned at IIMA last summer to understand what is an MBA from the best in India.I learned its a combination of thinking smart and producing more results.Analysing situation etc (i thought this seems easy ,i have been doing it in chess for so many years) are the core basis.
Anaysis of worksheets ,balancesheets,spreadsheets etc etc ,case studies by the number
sitting in the library for 6 hours daily form a nice routine.Hey no wonder they call it the toughest B school in India woking 15 hours a day ,no one sleeps more than 6 hours(did i say six its lower in most cases) suprise quizzes assignments.Did i mention the fact that you have come to class to discuss rather than to be taught.All chapters have to read in advance.Discipline takes a new form and timings are reespected ,you cannot get late in class etc etc you cannot fall sick ,100% attendance is compulsory.

coming to my side

I know that i am not perfect for a s/w engineer's job.But i know i can be very persuasive and unyielding .I can intuitively understand a lot of situations besides
my secret ambitions of owning mansions, jets etc... Now I am motivated enough to get what I want.So i decided on PGP in management or an MBA.
Techniques for motivation
1. Try a SWOT analysis. Follow this link:http://www.quickmba.com/strategy/swot/.
2. Meditate and try and understand what you want. Try to think of some events that have shaped your life(this is tough i mean really tough if you have some cobwebs in your life).Or Why do you think you are what you are?
3. The Real question:Why do you want what you want? Is it just money, fame,power sense of belief etc. or something more? And how badly do you want it? This question appears in different forms in all interviews. 'Why MBA' is just a form of this question. Believe me, it is worthy to know this.
4. One sincere suggestion is: don't think about the problems that you will need to face when you think about above 3 questions. At this step, you will know where you should ideally be. Be tough to yourself and don't fall into fallacies like 'since i can dream all day, I can be a dreamer.
5. Now that you know where you should be, try to visualize. Well, it is true when they say that visualization is one thing that keeps humans above other forms of animals. There can be endless arguements on this point, but plz ...
I try to visualize in detail whatever I want. And when I get up from my session, I am roaring to go.It is like seeing before you do it,instincts etc all come from his tautological process ,that you see yourself again and again in that position
6. Get to know the marvels, be it a musical piece or a written word. I usually think about this "I was once a sperm who beat million others". Funny though true...
7. Think what can be and not just what is. It is a powerful statement though stolen from 'The magic of thinking BIG'.
8. If your lack of motivation is because of other powerful distractors, try praying. And do it consistently. You will definitely feel the positive result in a week or so...

references
ankur sanghi

Thursday, March 31, 2005

Reconciliation

Reconciliation means adjustment
synonyms include adaptation, compliance, composition, compromise, conformity, fitting, modification, reconciliation, settlement..........
well that is what the day after you break your dreams,break a relationship after making it sacred.Relations turn from sacred to profane too often.

Just returned from home a few days ago,all time at home was used up in visiting relatives.Hardly anytime for friends(sad na) except the last day.
so i had to reconcile being a pet to my niece,no girl has ever forced me to hold hands,get down on my knees ,carry her around etc and she did it in a day.Well it wasn't bad cause she loves me as no other girl would.
During the return journey i met a doctor who asked me a question on the changing scenario,how much does the environment of the city affect the educational institutions ?

Saturday, March 19, 2005

Omerta

According to the World Book Dictionary
OMERTA is a Sicilian code of honor which forbids informing about crimes thought to be affairs of the person involved.I started the book by Mario Puzo in the morning and slept at 2 in the night,it was like anyother Puzo novel which signifies honor above everything else.
It talks about reasonable men who know that this world is not based on laws,that everything written in law is not enforced (cause some things are for the intellectuals to ponder about,utopia is a myth ).
Pretty much a potboiler ,with the essence of "The Godfather".But it is the important adages and wisdom that books give that is more important.
The lessons out of the book are as follows

"Never pass if you can dribble"
"Never Quit when you are 20 points down in the last quarter"
and "Never go out with a woman who has more than one cat"

i understood the first two but couldn't understand the third one ,although i think i better take his word for it.
Oh i missed my yoga time cause of this book ,got up late at 7:31 am
:((
but shit happens
in between talking on the phone is a pleasure with some girls(read some)
Dares are the most innocuous of crimes commited by a guy
someone listening.anyone

Friday, March 18, 2005

Three guys, a girl and loads of fun

The last time i talked about The Friends it was about Rahul etc(see the blog about the friends below) now i talk about my friends.
Well lately we have been hanging a lot together which i might add is a pleasure, Subhashish Chakraborthy (shomu as well call him besides other pseudoyms as we call him) is the compassionate and extremely funny guy(if you aren't used to his type of humor his company can be mortifying)
the thing about subashish is that he juxtaposes heckling, kiding, lampooning, makes sport of, mocking, parodizing, ridicules, satirizes, teasing and makes you think isn't this so much fun
,Aakash gaur(aka the shahid kapur clone) is sweet naive guy ,he is cute and sweet,yes girls! cute and sweet :)).He is kinda friend whom i won't mind having the trenches with me.
Can't say anything about me it would be a battery of lies but i still like to say that i am like clay mould me as you can.Yesterday i was so drowsy but still i couldn't refuse the offer of missing a outing with them(we went to a see a movie "Black" nice na and .
Abhipsita Singh(iru , pista etc) brings balance to it all , she is the madame and brings order if necessary though for the last few days she has been enjoying our rif raf and friendly bantering.She has been sick(migraines) and we, aakash me and shomu have been trying to cheer her up and i guess its working cause she is looking better(may be its just the medicines and sleep she has been taking).
on a personal note,the thing is that i can get depressed very easily and these guys have been making my life great.
thats all folks for today

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Mr.Mojo Risin

Anagrams seem to be flavor of the day today.
Every heard about The Doors front man Jim Morrison,when i heard about the doors ,i thought of the Doors of Perception ,Doors which seperate who and who,strangers basking in the crowds,seperated by the very limitation of their names.
Some people wish to change their names but they seem too attached ,others use anagrams Mr.Mojo risin comes to Jim Morrison,i was wondering what would be anagram for my name or yours.
yesterday i had a day out with my friend aakash ,while relaxing he mocked while watching a video clip from some new movie whether wearing such clothes and dancing is a realistic.I answered that it is not reality but fantasy that movies sell,we all have fantasies even though we never may want to fulfill them in reallife.

Varun Khullar

Hun
Hull
Lunar
Raul
Run
Arun
what words can you make out of your name!!!!

Sunday, March 13, 2005

The Friends

Most of you might have watched at one time or another the popular sitcom The Friends but you would have never faced the Friends in real life.Well i ain't talking about the friends in the sitcom but the so called friends clan of IIITA Rahul Suchit Shekhar and Ashish.These guys are like glue, they study together ,they do projects together, they eat, sleep besides other things together.


So except doing projects together ,applying for internships ,they also watch the series The Friends everyday during lunch and dinner.During the hedonistic pleasures they entrall in,I have sometimes enjoyed their company othertimes better not give words to misery personified.......

So as it happened day before yesterday ,i was sleeping peacefully and suddenly the friends appeared in the my room ,pleading with me to let thm watch friends on my PC(which i refused! sorry guys)
But one thing i didn't mention was that the friends never give up,they were back the next day with plates from the Mess in the afternoon.
mmoral of the story
" persistence pays"

the friends motto is pretty clear and you can't ignore even a fool if he is laloo and they are my friends "The Friends".

Friday, March 11, 2005

The Waste Land

While reading Catch 22 by Joseph Heller,i came across a paragraph in which it was mentioned "no poet makes money except perhaps TS Elliot".I just looked up the name on google and came across The Wasteland a piece of poetry.

March has been a revelatory month for me, i did somethings which i never though i would be capable of.I am little bemused by my actions.I have been getting up in the morning at around 4,started doing yoga(thanks to my roomate) then head to the gym for some warm up exercises,i even reach classes before time(now this is weird) and have loads of time for basketball in the evening .
You can ask what the big deal about this all ,well the time i get up now is the ime i used to sleep,i used to play AOC (computer games for the rustics) all night long which i have left.Everything i used to do for the last three years seems a distance past.

oh! in between we had a intra college cricket tournament at the our college IIITA , we reached the finals and choked big time (i got a hat-trick and a five wicket hall,god i choked!!!).The cut short story is that we lost by 8 runs and i was the last man standing.

Friday, February 25, 2005

Quantum Teleportation

Ever heard of the term "Teleportation" ,according to the IBM site
http://www.research.ibm.com/quantuminfo/teleportation/

the term was given by science fiction writers to making an object or person disintegrate or vanish at one place and exact replica appearing in some other place. A few science fiction writers consider teleporters that preserve the original, and the plot gets complicated when the original and teleported versions of the same person meet, but the more common kind of teleporter destroys the original, functioning as a super transportation device, not as a perfect replicator of souls and bodies.

In 1993 an international group of six scientists, including IBM Fellow Charles H. Bennett, confirmed the intuitions of the majority of science fiction writers by showing that perfect teleportation is indeed possible in principle, but only if the original is destroyed.

In subsequent years, other scientists have demonstrated teleportation experimentally in a variety of systems, including single photons, coherent light fields, nuclear spins, and trapped ions.
consider a document
let us assume that you can scan the original copy without destroying it(heard about fax machines),then that information can be used to create the same particle or object someother place,suppose we have extracted every bit of information necessary or which is present in a system ,then we can simulate the particle at someother place.Let us assume human cloning is possible(might as well be possible) so by suing the information extracted from a particular person ,we can create a replica some other place.But the idea of quantum teleportation is different.supposedly we have two entangled states of objects A ans C then object A has some information about object C even though its may no longer be in entangled with C.So we operate object A with some object B then we can extract the data from A and end it to use to create replica of a A.
According to the site
There is a subtle, unscannable kind of information that, unlike any material cargo, and even unlike ordinary information, can indeed be delivered in such a backward fashion. This subtle kind of information, also called "Einstein-Podolsky-Rosen (EPR) correlation" or "entanglement", has been at least partly understood since the 1930s when it was discussed in a famous paper by Albert Einstein, Boris Podolsky, and Nathan Rosen. In the 1960s John Bell showed that a pair of entangled particles, which were once in contact but later move too far apart to interact directly, can exhibit individually random behavior that is too strongly correlated to be explained by classical statistics.


Some Extra Notes
In the quantum teleportation protocol, a classical channel is required to transfer two bits of information. Therefore, the transmitting of information is not faster than the speed of light.
Quantum non-cloning theorem still holds. The originally qubit has to be destroyed (measured) during the process. Also note that energy and matter can not be teleported in this manner, only the quantum state (i.e. quantum information) is transmitted.
Although a continuous qubit (infinite degree of freedom) is transmitted using two classical bits (four degree of freedom), this process can not be used to increase the capacity of classical channel. Holevo's theorem states that one qubit can only be used to transport at most one classical bit.
While the two bits sent through the classical channel can be intercepted by a third party, the information is totally useless without Bob's entangled copy of the qubit. Therefore, this is an absolutely secure way to transmit information, and has been suggested as an ideal way for crypt key distribution.

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Ride the Snake

the biography of Jim Morrison
that the read of the month

"No One Here Gets Out Alive"

"Poetic today" aren't we so try to set my fire...........



You know that it would be untrue
You know that I would be a liar
If I was to say to you
Girl, we couldn’t get much higher
Come on baby, light my fire
Come on baby, light my fire
Try to set the night on fire

Time to hesitate is through
No time to wallow in the mire
Try now we can only lose
And our love become a funeral pyre

Come on baby, light my fire
Come on baby, light my fire
Try to set the night on fire

Aouh, come on!
Come on, babe!

Yeah! come on!
Come on!

Woaouh! yeah!

It was the greatest night of my life.
Although I still had not found a wife
I had my friends
Right there beside me.
We were close together.
We tripped the wall, we scaled the graveyard
Ancient shapes were all around us.
The wet dew felt fresh beside the fog.
Two made love in an ancient spot
One chased a rabbit into the dark
A girl got drunk and balled the dead
And I gave empty sermons to my head.
Cemetary, cool and quiet
Hate to leave your sacred lay
Dread the milky coming of the day.

Ah, ah, ah, ah!
Ah, ah, ah, ah!
Ah, ah, ah, ah!
Ah, ah, ah, ah!
Ah, ah, ah, ah!
Ah, ah, ah, ah!
Ah, ah, ah, ah!
Aah, aah, aah, aah, aah
Aah, aah, aah, aaah!

Time to hesitate is through
No time to wallow in the mire
Try now we can only lose
And our love become a funeral pyre

Come on baby, light my fire
Come on baby, light my fire
Try to set the night on fire

Know that it would be untrue
You know that I would be a liar
If I was to say to you
Girl, we couldn’t get much higher

Come on baby, light my fire
Come on baby, light my fire
Try to set the night on fire
Try to set the night on fire
Try to set the night on fire
Try to set the night on fire!

All right, all right!
All right!


no one here gets out alive,i ask myself do i want to live forever.

Monday, February 14, 2005

Valentine's day with Nandi

well i better not give words to my misery ,the title speaks for itself.

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

Commutation

the day started with some more matrix multiplication(read robotics class &***%$$) then we had the two hour quantum computing class in which commutation of variables was the topic .We started with schrodinger's equation ,tried to solve it under the apporximation
consider the eigen equation
A|vi> = ai|vi>
ai are all distinct non degenerate
a1= a2 some ai are same
degenerate
the eigen value equation
we consider the vector in Hilbert's Space representing the state ,if we take the projection on the x axis we get the wave function.
[x,Px] = x.PX-PX.x is not equal to zero but ih

well it reminds of the fact that even though two functions may be independent and then they can't commute .if they can't commute then there is no uncertainty.

Friday, February 04, 2005

Dancing Wu Li Masters

hi again ,fellow humans welcome to 4th february 2005
the day started with a suprise quiz on neural networks (the prof is weird ,suprise quiz in the morning ##$@$$ and the questions no wonder looked like something in latin),a bit of a repreive in digital signal procesing ,then came the abstract but laconic quantum computing.
in between lots of quantum algebra Sir couldn't miss to quote Rene Descartes( the man who made coordinate geometry possible ) and add to his quote.
"meta physics are the roots,physics is the stem and the branches are all other braches of science".He asked us to read two books on qunatum physics Fritjof Capra "Tao of Physics" and "Dancing Wuli Master" by Gary Zukav(may be soon after catch 22).
He added that quantum mechanics is part between the stem and the roots.In my words its the place where saness is found by metaphysics or deeper reality,the place where meta physics meets physics that is where quantum mechanics lies.
After this we had Artificial intelligence which we have loads of,all about predicate and propositional logic.
Most of us will call it a day but not at iiita we have 3 hours tutorial on NFC neuro fuzzy computing and got 5 assignments and term project as parting gift.

Thursday, February 03, 2005

Habits ,Transformations and Relatedness

welcome again to my melange of thoughts.

Today was a day unlike the days gone before.As it happens sometimes i got late into class (robotics taken by Dr.G.C.Nandi ) and we learned about transformation operators in 3D (on matrices not literally) seriously the lecture emphasized the role of transformation in robotics..though a bit trivial ,i think we will handle advanced transformations in tommorow's class.

So why did i blog ,what's the special ocassion
I had my first class in quantum computing(##$$@#$@$)

even though i haven't taken it as a subject i have decided to attend the lectures as a hobby(what the #$%@ ).Well that will put me in a category of nerds(read quantum mechanics as hobby) but i think quantum mechanics is beautiful.The way some mathematical equations which have no physical significance end up making a theory so precise and yet abstract,explains the most unconvicing of nature's action so elegantly .
Reasons for attending quantum computing lectures
ever since i remember i always like to question before i believed,i learnt about life from experience and from logic.I had many questions about life and its existence some have been answered others not.The question of the fundamental building block of life is one of the questions.I believe someplaces traditional logic fails and here we require something else,i believe quantum logic is what we require .
Moreover i think quantum mechanics recognises human behavior which no other exact science can do,the idea of a consciousness is not recognised by any other branch of exact science.Some people think of quantum mechanics as a philosphy rather than a science,i believe quantum mechanics started as philosphy and so did all branches of science.
mathematics is philosphy but cause of the exactness given to it by our future generation ,it is referred to being embodied as an art and a science.I believe every endeavour in nature first studied has to be looked as an art.Our teacher for quantum computing are prof.C M Bhandari and he in his very first lecture talked of Galileo
famous quote

"to understand nature one has to understand the language it has been written,that language is mathematics"

he talked about the bane of habit which makes a man repetitious and stagnant ,he talked about Max Muller being the greatest sanskrit scholar in the 20th century,that the idea of quantum mechanics were derived from eastern thought.Heisenberg and Schrodinger are refered to as the fathers of quantum mechanics ,Heisenberg with metric mechanics and Schrodinger with wave mechanics.He talked about the importance of a fresh mind thinking from a outsider's perspective rather than a prejudiced mind.
Then the lectured transformed from pure philosphy to a pure mathematical continum.It started from vector algebra ,the relation with algebra which we define for quantum algebra (bra and ket algebra).
The ideas of the hilbert space(infinite dimensional space).let me explain
For an ant walking on a wire ,its view can be described by one dimension,for a object on a plane its position can be described by two dimension,for us humans it position can be described by three dimension.... so by hypothesis we talk of an object which can be described in n dimensions.
look at the equation

[u'] = [a][u]
where [u'] and [u] are column vectors
and a be a transformation matrix("jamais vu") but we can define it to be an operator.
we talk of a special case where
u' = u and then the equation is special or eigen in german
Gu =E u is an example of eigen equation and E is an constant and G is an opertor.
Sir talked of importance of a trace of a matrix and proved that trace of matrix A is same as A'
for y= Ax
wonderful beginnning and what's more he gave me a book to read.Those who are interested in quantum mechanics can go through feynman lectures in physics vol 3 (can email you the copy if you don't have)
as a parting note i leave you
"though that may not be necessay we study,though it might not be necessary we feel
though marks have no relation with knowledge we get them".
thanks for this course where i get no acknowledgement ,no recognition(from the dean) and most imporant no marks

Sunday, January 30, 2005

Catch 22

revise
have a look at the word list
from catch 22 by joseph heller


orpid—sluggish; slow and dull; lethargic; apathetic.


macabre—literally, dance of death; grim; horrible; gruesome.

invidiously—inciting ill will, odium, or envy.

laconic—brief or terse in speech or expression.

furtive—stealthy; sneaky; surreptitious.

wraith—ghost; the spectral figure of a person seen as a premonition of death.

lithe—flexible; supple; limber.


enigma—a perplexing, usually ambiguous statement; a riddle.

debauch—to lead astray morally; to corrupt or deprave.

excoriate—to strip, scratch, or rub off the skin; to chafe.

milk run—a mission so easy and safe that it’s compared to the daily delivery of milk.

reticent—habitually silent or uncommunicative.


enervating—depriving of strength, force or vigor.

moue—(French) “a pouting grimace”; a wry face.

fetid—having a bad smell, as of decay; putrid.

Capisci? —(Italian) “Do you understand?” (Note: Other Italian phrases in the chapter are translatable by context or through Yossarian’s response.)

libidinous—full of or characterized by lust.

dog tags—metal identification pendants worn in duplicate and resembling dogs’ identification tags; in addition to other information, they include blood type.


Marrakech—a prominent city in, and former capital of, Morocco, in northwestern Africa.

dose of clap—a case of gonorrhea, a sexually transmitted disease.

goldbrick—to shirk one’s duty through fakery; to malinger.

Euripedes—(480–406 b.c.) tragedian of classical Athens. The highly educated Clevinger would be familiar with him.

sarcophagus—any-stone coffin, especially one on display, as in a monumental tomb.


oscillate—to swing or move regularly back and forth.

Anabaptist—any member of a radical sixteenth-century sect of the Reformation originating in Switzerland.

déjà vu—(French) “already seen”; a feeling that one has been in a place or had a particular experience before.

jamais vu and presque vu—(French) “never seen” and “almost seen”; variations of déjà vu.

assuage—to lessen (pain or distress); to allay; to pacify.

ignominy—loss of one’s reputation; shame and dishonor.

carnal delights—in or of the flesh; bodily or sexual pleasures.


KP—kitchen police; an assignment, usually temporary, to work in the mess-hall kitchen.

didactic—used or intended for teaching or instruction.

“what’s good for the syndicate is good for the country”—Heller’s satirical twist on Charles Erwin Wilson’s classic capitalistic statement to the Senate Armed Forces Committee (1952): “What is good for the country is good for General Motors, and what’s good for General Motors is good for the country.

G-men—government men; agents of the Federal Bureau of Investigation.


anathema—a thing or person accursed or damned; detested.

halvah—a Turkish confection consisting of crushed sesame seeds, nuts and honey.

ersatz—substitute or synthetic; artificial.

apocalyptic—here, refers to ultimate destruction; the end of the world.

strafe—to attack ground positions or troops with machine-gun fire from low-flying planes.

savoir-faire—(French) “to know [how] to do”; the ability to say or do the right thing.


ontology—the branch of metaphysics dealing with the nature of being or reality.

a fortiori—(Latin) “for a stronger [reason]”; said of a conclusion that follows, with even stronger logical necessity, one already accepted.

ruefully—regretfully; feeling or showing remorse.


ambivalence—simultaneous conflicting feelings toward a person or thing.


Luftwaffe—here, Air Force of Nazi Germany.

bemused—plunged in thought; preoccupied.

Mae West—inflatable life jacket for use by aviators downed at sea; named after a shapely movie actress of the 1930s and 1940s.

sedulous—working hard and steadily; diligent.

medulla oblongata—(Latin) the widening continuation of the spinal cord, forming the lower part of the brain and controlling respiration as well as other bodily functions.

incorrigible—can not be corrected or improved; set in bad habits.


Mais c’est la guerre—(French) “But such is war.”

erudite—learned; scholarly; having or showing a wide knowledge.

fastidious—very critical or discriminating; refined in too dainty a way.

capricious—tending to change abruptly and without apparent reason; erratic.

inexorable—cannot be moved or influenced by persuasion; unrelenting.


PX—Post Exchange; a store or stores on military bases offering merchandise at reduced prices for service personnel.

ubiquitous—everywhere at the same time; omnipresent.

V-mail—Victory-mail; a postal service during World War II, to or from the armed forces, in which letters were reduced to microfilm, to conserve shipping space, and enlarged and printed for delivery.

requisition—a formal written order, request, or application for equipment.

Donald Duck—a cartoon character whose nephews (Huey, Dewey, and Louie) are energetic but relatively ingenuous little scamps.

obtuse—not sharp; slow to understand or perceive.


motley—here, composed of many different or clashing elements—Nately and his friends form a “motley rescue party.”


arduous—difficult to do; laborious.

languorous—lacking vigor or vitality.

perchè—(Italian) “why” or “because.”

Tu sei un pazzo imbecille!—(Italian) “You are a crazy idiot!”

obstreperous—noisy; boisterous; unruly.

Saturnalia—here, a period or occasion of unrestrained, often orgiastic, revelry.

deferential—yielding in opinion, judgment, or wishes; showing respect.


F.O.B.—a commercial term standing for “free on board”; without charge to the buyer for placing goods on board a carrier at the point of shipment.

Piltdown Man—One of the great hoaxes of the twentieth century, the Piltdown man supposedly was an early species of modern man postulated from bones found near Piltdown (Sussex, England) around 1911 but exposed as a forgery in 1953.

Messerschmitt—a german fighter plane during World War II, manufactured by Willy Messerschmitt (1898–1978).

Hapsburg—a noble German family furnishing sovereigns to Australia (1278–1918) and to Spain (1516–1700). Here, there is an ironic reference to their credit rating.

dissuade—to advise against; to convince someone not to do something.

M.P.—military police.


Q.E.D.—abbreviation for the Latin quod erat demonstrandum, meaning “which was to be demonstrated or proven,” a phrase used in mathematics.

irascible—easily angered; quick-tempered.

languid—without vigor or vitality.

chagrin—a feeling of embarrassment or annoyance because one has failed or been disappointed; mortification.

apoplexy—a cerebral accident or stroke; a condition in any organ of severe hemorrhage or infarction.

Achilles—Greek warrior and leader in the Trojan War; hero in Homer’s Iliad who temporarily refuses to fight.


cajole—to coax with flattery or insincere talk.

ululating—moaning or lamenting loudly.

cara mio—(Italian) “my dear.”

grazie, grazie—(Italian) “thank you, thank you.”

stolid—having or showing little or no emotion or sensitivity.

Old Blood and Guts—nickname for General George Smith Patton (1885–1945), commander of the Seventh and Third Armies during World War II; the comparison is sardonic.


recant—to withdraw or renounce beliefs or statements formerly held.


carabinieri—Italian police.

marchese—an Italian nobleman, ranking above a count but below a prince.

insipid—without flavor; not exciting; dull; lifeless.

vexation—a cause of annoyance or distress.

insouciant—calm and untroubled; carefree; indifferent.


flaccid—hanging in loose folds or wrinkles; flabby.

affably—pleasantly; in a friendly manner.

‘sprit de corps—(French, esprit de corps) “spirit of the corps or group”; an attitude of enthusiasm and devotion among members of a group for each other, the group, and its cause.

acrimonious—bitter and caustic in temper, manner, or speech.


sardonic—disdainfully or bitterly sarcastic and ironic.

sulfanilamide—a sulfur compound used in treatment of various bacterial infections.

gangrene—decay of body tissue when the blood supply is obstructed by injury or disease.

acquiesce—to agree or consent quietly, without protest, but without enthusiasm.


exophthalmic eyes—abnormal protrusion of the eyeballs, caused by various disorders.

Thursday, January 13, 2005

Trying to find the words

the new year has come though i don't understand the concept of a new year in midst of winters(well in the north its a bit cold)
my opinion is that new year should be reserved for spring,cause that is when everyone is energetic and happy,but i can't do anything about it except celebrate my personel new year in spring.And among the few rules of my life, the best one is never think about something you cannot imagine a solution to.
like never look at a girl if you are not interested to go out with her or atleast talk to her,like if i can't talk to a girl then their is no point looking at her ans so on imagine. this is something my friends normally don't agree with me on this matter.
never look at a book you don't plan on reading blah blah don't i sound like a con man deepak chopra ....don't, i ,i wish, i was, inexorable, god bless the world.

So what did i do the previous year

i saw Alexander- the movie
something i noticed funny ,suppose i end being this great man whose name resonates through the ages ,and a picture is made in my honour say two thousand years afterwards

suppose i don't marry will i be called gay .......or a bisexsual....
the ways of the world are most amusing
moral of the sotry if you don't desire a woman you are gay
is it!!!
i leave with this though of parting

Sunday, December 26, 2004

Friends and chilly winters

this is my first blog from home,and i am here with a friend who is calling me lukka (vella in IITB lingo)...he is pondering right now on marriage proposals advertisements .A few years early though his adventures.
i read three books during my stay till now
1.made in japan-akoi morita
2.bridge across forever-richard bach
3.alexander-the ends of the earth by valerio manfredi

funny thing about the third book i once told my friend when we were parting after 12th that if he calls me i will follow him to the ends of this earth.
meanwhile i wait for his call tsunami has hit india and south east asia ...
everything in the world is so transient and so fickle
so diverse but united
varun signing out 4om chandigarh

Thursday, December 16, 2004

The return of ...

Home Coming
Tommorow i leave for home ,with hope that i reach home.Journey's are like life ,they are uncertain..Everytime i embark on the journey home,i don't know whether i will be back again .I don't know why but i feel out of place everytime i go home,as if its not mine.It is abtract unclear why i feel this, but i avoid going home.........

Friday, December 03, 2004

###$$$

life is ?????
here it goes zoom..........
i am back to reading again yuppie ,semester project is over finallyoh it was killing me,all the fumes from the soldering,connecting wires goosh!!
i read hemingway during the last week,this week i am back again to fininsh my business with aristotle and kant.
something i require to exercise
Rhetoric is useful (1) because things that are true and things that
are just have a natural tendency to prevail over their opposites,
so that if the decisions of judges are not what they ought to be,
the defeat must be due to the speakers themselves, and they must be
blamed accordingly.

Moreover, (2) before some audiences not even the
possession of the exactest knowledge will make it easy for what we
say to produce conviction. For argument based on knowledge implies
instruction, and there are people whom one cannot instruct. Here,
then, we must use, as our modes of persuasion and argument, notions
possessed by everybody, as we observed in the Topics when dealing
with the way to handle a popular audience.

Further, (3) we must be
able to employ persuasion, just as strict reasoning can be employed,
on opposite sides of a question, not in order that we may in practice
employ it in both ways (for we must not make people believe what is
wrong), but in order that we may see clearly what the facts are, and
that, if another man argues unfairly, we on our part may be able to
confute him. No other of the arts draws opposite conclusions: dialectic
and rhetoric alone do this. Both these arts draw opposite conclusions
impartially. Nevertheless, the underlying facts do not lend themselves
equally well to the contrary views. No; things that are true and things
that are better are, by their nature, practically always easier to
prove and easier to believe in.

Again, (4) it is absurd to hold that
a man ought to be ashamed of being unable to defend himself with his
limbs, but not of being unable to defend himself with speech and reason,
when the use of rational speech is more distinctive of a human being
than the use of his limbs. And if it be objected that one who uses
such power of speech unjustly might do great harm, that is a charge
which may be made in common against all good things except virtue,
and above all against the things that are most useful, as strength,
health, wealth, generalship. A man can confer the greatest of benefits
by a right use of these, and inflict the greatest of injuries by using
them wrongly.

these great words describe something i considered not necessary though after reading ,i inculcated them into my memory