Friday, February 25, 2005

Quantum Teleportation

Ever heard of the term "Teleportation" ,according to the IBM site
http://www.research.ibm.com/quantuminfo/teleportation/

the term was given by science fiction writers to making an object or person disintegrate or vanish at one place and exact replica appearing in some other place. A few science fiction writers consider teleporters that preserve the original, and the plot gets complicated when the original and teleported versions of the same person meet, but the more common kind of teleporter destroys the original, functioning as a super transportation device, not as a perfect replicator of souls and bodies.

In 1993 an international group of six scientists, including IBM Fellow Charles H. Bennett, confirmed the intuitions of the majority of science fiction writers by showing that perfect teleportation is indeed possible in principle, but only if the original is destroyed.

In subsequent years, other scientists have demonstrated teleportation experimentally in a variety of systems, including single photons, coherent light fields, nuclear spins, and trapped ions.
consider a document
let us assume that you can scan the original copy without destroying it(heard about fax machines),then that information can be used to create the same particle or object someother place,suppose we have extracted every bit of information necessary or which is present in a system ,then we can simulate the particle at someother place.Let us assume human cloning is possible(might as well be possible) so by suing the information extracted from a particular person ,we can create a replica some other place.But the idea of quantum teleportation is different.supposedly we have two entangled states of objects A ans C then object A has some information about object C even though its may no longer be in entangled with C.So we operate object A with some object B then we can extract the data from A and end it to use to create replica of a A.
According to the site
There is a subtle, unscannable kind of information that, unlike any material cargo, and even unlike ordinary information, can indeed be delivered in such a backward fashion. This subtle kind of information, also called "Einstein-Podolsky-Rosen (EPR) correlation" or "entanglement", has been at least partly understood since the 1930s when it was discussed in a famous paper by Albert Einstein, Boris Podolsky, and Nathan Rosen. In the 1960s John Bell showed that a pair of entangled particles, which were once in contact but later move too far apart to interact directly, can exhibit individually random behavior that is too strongly correlated to be explained by classical statistics.


Some Extra Notes
In the quantum teleportation protocol, a classical channel is required to transfer two bits of information. Therefore, the transmitting of information is not faster than the speed of light.
Quantum non-cloning theorem still holds. The originally qubit has to be destroyed (measured) during the process. Also note that energy and matter can not be teleported in this manner, only the quantum state (i.e. quantum information) is transmitted.
Although a continuous qubit (infinite degree of freedom) is transmitted using two classical bits (four degree of freedom), this process can not be used to increase the capacity of classical channel. Holevo's theorem states that one qubit can only be used to transport at most one classical bit.
While the two bits sent through the classical channel can be intercepted by a third party, the information is totally useless without Bob's entangled copy of the qubit. Therefore, this is an absolutely secure way to transmit information, and has been suggested as an ideal way for crypt key distribution.

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Ride the Snake

the biography of Jim Morrison
that the read of the month

"No One Here Gets Out Alive"

"Poetic today" aren't we so try to set my fire...........



You know that it would be untrue
You know that I would be a liar
If I was to say to you
Girl, we couldn’t get much higher
Come on baby, light my fire
Come on baby, light my fire
Try to set the night on fire

Time to hesitate is through
No time to wallow in the mire
Try now we can only lose
And our love become a funeral pyre

Come on baby, light my fire
Come on baby, light my fire
Try to set the night on fire

Aouh, come on!
Come on, babe!

Yeah! come on!
Come on!

Woaouh! yeah!

It was the greatest night of my life.
Although I still had not found a wife
I had my friends
Right there beside me.
We were close together.
We tripped the wall, we scaled the graveyard
Ancient shapes were all around us.
The wet dew felt fresh beside the fog.
Two made love in an ancient spot
One chased a rabbit into the dark
A girl got drunk and balled the dead
And I gave empty sermons to my head.
Cemetary, cool and quiet
Hate to leave your sacred lay
Dread the milky coming of the day.

Ah, ah, ah, ah!
Ah, ah, ah, ah!
Ah, ah, ah, ah!
Ah, ah, ah, ah!
Ah, ah, ah, ah!
Ah, ah, ah, ah!
Ah, ah, ah, ah!
Aah, aah, aah, aah, aah
Aah, aah, aah, aaah!

Time to hesitate is through
No time to wallow in the mire
Try now we can only lose
And our love become a funeral pyre

Come on baby, light my fire
Come on baby, light my fire
Try to set the night on fire

Know that it would be untrue
You know that I would be a liar
If I was to say to you
Girl, we couldn’t get much higher

Come on baby, light my fire
Come on baby, light my fire
Try to set the night on fire
Try to set the night on fire
Try to set the night on fire
Try to set the night on fire!

All right, all right!
All right!


no one here gets out alive,i ask myself do i want to live forever.

Monday, February 14, 2005

Valentine's day with Nandi

well i better not give words to my misery ,the title speaks for itself.

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

Commutation

the day started with some more matrix multiplication(read robotics class &***%$$) then we had the two hour quantum computing class in which commutation of variables was the topic .We started with schrodinger's equation ,tried to solve it under the apporximation
consider the eigen equation
A|vi> = ai|vi>
ai are all distinct non degenerate
a1= a2 some ai are same
degenerate
the eigen value equation
we consider the vector in Hilbert's Space representing the state ,if we take the projection on the x axis we get the wave function.
[x,Px] = x.PX-PX.x is not equal to zero but ih

well it reminds of the fact that even though two functions may be independent and then they can't commute .if they can't commute then there is no uncertainty.

Friday, February 04, 2005

Dancing Wu Li Masters

hi again ,fellow humans welcome to 4th february 2005
the day started with a suprise quiz on neural networks (the prof is weird ,suprise quiz in the morning ##$@$$ and the questions no wonder looked like something in latin),a bit of a repreive in digital signal procesing ,then came the abstract but laconic quantum computing.
in between lots of quantum algebra Sir couldn't miss to quote Rene Descartes( the man who made coordinate geometry possible ) and add to his quote.
"meta physics are the roots,physics is the stem and the branches are all other braches of science".He asked us to read two books on qunatum physics Fritjof Capra "Tao of Physics" and "Dancing Wuli Master" by Gary Zukav(may be soon after catch 22).
He added that quantum mechanics is part between the stem and the roots.In my words its the place where saness is found by metaphysics or deeper reality,the place where meta physics meets physics that is where quantum mechanics lies.
After this we had Artificial intelligence which we have loads of,all about predicate and propositional logic.
Most of us will call it a day but not at iiita we have 3 hours tutorial on NFC neuro fuzzy computing and got 5 assignments and term project as parting gift.

Thursday, February 03, 2005

Habits ,Transformations and Relatedness

welcome again to my melange of thoughts.

Today was a day unlike the days gone before.As it happens sometimes i got late into class (robotics taken by Dr.G.C.Nandi ) and we learned about transformation operators in 3D (on matrices not literally) seriously the lecture emphasized the role of transformation in robotics..though a bit trivial ,i think we will handle advanced transformations in tommorow's class.

So why did i blog ,what's the special ocassion
I had my first class in quantum computing(##$$@#$@$)

even though i haven't taken it as a subject i have decided to attend the lectures as a hobby(what the #$%@ ).Well that will put me in a category of nerds(read quantum mechanics as hobby) but i think quantum mechanics is beautiful.The way some mathematical equations which have no physical significance end up making a theory so precise and yet abstract,explains the most unconvicing of nature's action so elegantly .
Reasons for attending quantum computing lectures
ever since i remember i always like to question before i believed,i learnt about life from experience and from logic.I had many questions about life and its existence some have been answered others not.The question of the fundamental building block of life is one of the questions.I believe someplaces traditional logic fails and here we require something else,i believe quantum logic is what we require .
Moreover i think quantum mechanics recognises human behavior which no other exact science can do,the idea of a consciousness is not recognised by any other branch of exact science.Some people think of quantum mechanics as a philosphy rather than a science,i believe quantum mechanics started as philosphy and so did all branches of science.
mathematics is philosphy but cause of the exactness given to it by our future generation ,it is referred to being embodied as an art and a science.I believe every endeavour in nature first studied has to be looked as an art.Our teacher for quantum computing are prof.C M Bhandari and he in his very first lecture talked of Galileo
famous quote

"to understand nature one has to understand the language it has been written,that language is mathematics"

he talked about the bane of habit which makes a man repetitious and stagnant ,he talked about Max Muller being the greatest sanskrit scholar in the 20th century,that the idea of quantum mechanics were derived from eastern thought.Heisenberg and Schrodinger are refered to as the fathers of quantum mechanics ,Heisenberg with metric mechanics and Schrodinger with wave mechanics.He talked about the importance of a fresh mind thinking from a outsider's perspective rather than a prejudiced mind.
Then the lectured transformed from pure philosphy to a pure mathematical continum.It started from vector algebra ,the relation with algebra which we define for quantum algebra (bra and ket algebra).
The ideas of the hilbert space(infinite dimensional space).let me explain
For an ant walking on a wire ,its view can be described by one dimension,for a object on a plane its position can be described by two dimension,for us humans it position can be described by three dimension.... so by hypothesis we talk of an object which can be described in n dimensions.
look at the equation

[u'] = [a][u]
where [u'] and [u] are column vectors
and a be a transformation matrix("jamais vu") but we can define it to be an operator.
we talk of a special case where
u' = u and then the equation is special or eigen in german
Gu =E u is an example of eigen equation and E is an constant and G is an opertor.
Sir talked of importance of a trace of a matrix and proved that trace of matrix A is same as A'
for y= Ax
wonderful beginnning and what's more he gave me a book to read.Those who are interested in quantum mechanics can go through feynman lectures in physics vol 3 (can email you the copy if you don't have)
as a parting note i leave you
"though that may not be necessay we study,though it might not be necessary we feel
though marks have no relation with knowledge we get them".
thanks for this course where i get no acknowledgement ,no recognition(from the dean) and most imporant no marks

Sunday, January 30, 2005

Catch 22

revise
have a look at the word list
from catch 22 by joseph heller


orpid—sluggish; slow and dull; lethargic; apathetic.


macabre—literally, dance of death; grim; horrible; gruesome.

invidiously—inciting ill will, odium, or envy.

laconic—brief or terse in speech or expression.

furtive—stealthy; sneaky; surreptitious.

wraith—ghost; the spectral figure of a person seen as a premonition of death.

lithe—flexible; supple; limber.


enigma—a perplexing, usually ambiguous statement; a riddle.

debauch—to lead astray morally; to corrupt or deprave.

excoriate—to strip, scratch, or rub off the skin; to chafe.

milk run—a mission so easy and safe that it’s compared to the daily delivery of milk.

reticent—habitually silent or uncommunicative.


enervating—depriving of strength, force or vigor.

moue—(French) “a pouting grimace”; a wry face.

fetid—having a bad smell, as of decay; putrid.

Capisci? —(Italian) “Do you understand?” (Note: Other Italian phrases in the chapter are translatable by context or through Yossarian’s response.)

libidinous—full of or characterized by lust.

dog tags—metal identification pendants worn in duplicate and resembling dogs’ identification tags; in addition to other information, they include blood type.


Marrakech—a prominent city in, and former capital of, Morocco, in northwestern Africa.

dose of clap—a case of gonorrhea, a sexually transmitted disease.

goldbrick—to shirk one’s duty through fakery; to malinger.

Euripedes—(480–406 b.c.) tragedian of classical Athens. The highly educated Clevinger would be familiar with him.

sarcophagus—any-stone coffin, especially one on display, as in a monumental tomb.


oscillate—to swing or move regularly back and forth.

Anabaptist—any member of a radical sixteenth-century sect of the Reformation originating in Switzerland.

déjà vu—(French) “already seen”; a feeling that one has been in a place or had a particular experience before.

jamais vu and presque vu—(French) “never seen” and “almost seen”; variations of déjà vu.

assuage—to lessen (pain or distress); to allay; to pacify.

ignominy—loss of one’s reputation; shame and dishonor.

carnal delights—in or of the flesh; bodily or sexual pleasures.


KP—kitchen police; an assignment, usually temporary, to work in the mess-hall kitchen.

didactic—used or intended for teaching or instruction.

“what’s good for the syndicate is good for the country”—Heller’s satirical twist on Charles Erwin Wilson’s classic capitalistic statement to the Senate Armed Forces Committee (1952): “What is good for the country is good for General Motors, and what’s good for General Motors is good for the country.

G-men—government men; agents of the Federal Bureau of Investigation.


anathema—a thing or person accursed or damned; detested.

halvah—a Turkish confection consisting of crushed sesame seeds, nuts and honey.

ersatz—substitute or synthetic; artificial.

apocalyptic—here, refers to ultimate destruction; the end of the world.

strafe—to attack ground positions or troops with machine-gun fire from low-flying planes.

savoir-faire—(French) “to know [how] to do”; the ability to say or do the right thing.


ontology—the branch of metaphysics dealing with the nature of being or reality.

a fortiori—(Latin) “for a stronger [reason]”; said of a conclusion that follows, with even stronger logical necessity, one already accepted.

ruefully—regretfully; feeling or showing remorse.


ambivalence—simultaneous conflicting feelings toward a person or thing.


Luftwaffe—here, Air Force of Nazi Germany.

bemused—plunged in thought; preoccupied.

Mae West—inflatable life jacket for use by aviators downed at sea; named after a shapely movie actress of the 1930s and 1940s.

sedulous—working hard and steadily; diligent.

medulla oblongata—(Latin) the widening continuation of the spinal cord, forming the lower part of the brain and controlling respiration as well as other bodily functions.

incorrigible—can not be corrected or improved; set in bad habits.


Mais c’est la guerre—(French) “But such is war.”

erudite—learned; scholarly; having or showing a wide knowledge.

fastidious—very critical or discriminating; refined in too dainty a way.

capricious—tending to change abruptly and without apparent reason; erratic.

inexorable—cannot be moved or influenced by persuasion; unrelenting.


PX—Post Exchange; a store or stores on military bases offering merchandise at reduced prices for service personnel.

ubiquitous—everywhere at the same time; omnipresent.

V-mail—Victory-mail; a postal service during World War II, to or from the armed forces, in which letters were reduced to microfilm, to conserve shipping space, and enlarged and printed for delivery.

requisition—a formal written order, request, or application for equipment.

Donald Duck—a cartoon character whose nephews (Huey, Dewey, and Louie) are energetic but relatively ingenuous little scamps.

obtuse—not sharp; slow to understand or perceive.


motley—here, composed of many different or clashing elements—Nately and his friends form a “motley rescue party.”


arduous—difficult to do; laborious.

languorous—lacking vigor or vitality.

perchè—(Italian) “why” or “because.”

Tu sei un pazzo imbecille!—(Italian) “You are a crazy idiot!”

obstreperous—noisy; boisterous; unruly.

Saturnalia—here, a period or occasion of unrestrained, often orgiastic, revelry.

deferential—yielding in opinion, judgment, or wishes; showing respect.


F.O.B.—a commercial term standing for “free on board”; without charge to the buyer for placing goods on board a carrier at the point of shipment.

Piltdown Man—One of the great hoaxes of the twentieth century, the Piltdown man supposedly was an early species of modern man postulated from bones found near Piltdown (Sussex, England) around 1911 but exposed as a forgery in 1953.

Messerschmitt—a german fighter plane during World War II, manufactured by Willy Messerschmitt (1898–1978).

Hapsburg—a noble German family furnishing sovereigns to Australia (1278–1918) and to Spain (1516–1700). Here, there is an ironic reference to their credit rating.

dissuade—to advise against; to convince someone not to do something.

M.P.—military police.


Q.E.D.—abbreviation for the Latin quod erat demonstrandum, meaning “which was to be demonstrated or proven,” a phrase used in mathematics.

irascible—easily angered; quick-tempered.

languid—without vigor or vitality.

chagrin—a feeling of embarrassment or annoyance because one has failed or been disappointed; mortification.

apoplexy—a cerebral accident or stroke; a condition in any organ of severe hemorrhage or infarction.

Achilles—Greek warrior and leader in the Trojan War; hero in Homer’s Iliad who temporarily refuses to fight.


cajole—to coax with flattery or insincere talk.

ululating—moaning or lamenting loudly.

cara mio—(Italian) “my dear.”

grazie, grazie—(Italian) “thank you, thank you.”

stolid—having or showing little or no emotion or sensitivity.

Old Blood and Guts—nickname for General George Smith Patton (1885–1945), commander of the Seventh and Third Armies during World War II; the comparison is sardonic.


recant—to withdraw or renounce beliefs or statements formerly held.


carabinieri—Italian police.

marchese—an Italian nobleman, ranking above a count but below a prince.

insipid—without flavor; not exciting; dull; lifeless.

vexation—a cause of annoyance or distress.

insouciant—calm and untroubled; carefree; indifferent.


flaccid—hanging in loose folds or wrinkles; flabby.

affably—pleasantly; in a friendly manner.

‘sprit de corps—(French, esprit de corps) “spirit of the corps or group”; an attitude of enthusiasm and devotion among members of a group for each other, the group, and its cause.

acrimonious—bitter and caustic in temper, manner, or speech.


sardonic—disdainfully or bitterly sarcastic and ironic.

sulfanilamide—a sulfur compound used in treatment of various bacterial infections.

gangrene—decay of body tissue when the blood supply is obstructed by injury or disease.

acquiesce—to agree or consent quietly, without protest, but without enthusiasm.


exophthalmic eyes—abnormal protrusion of the eyeballs, caused by various disorders.

Thursday, January 13, 2005

Trying to find the words

the new year has come though i don't understand the concept of a new year in midst of winters(well in the north its a bit cold)
my opinion is that new year should be reserved for spring,cause that is when everyone is energetic and happy,but i can't do anything about it except celebrate my personel new year in spring.And among the few rules of my life, the best one is never think about something you cannot imagine a solution to.
like never look at a girl if you are not interested to go out with her or atleast talk to her,like if i can't talk to a girl then their is no point looking at her ans so on imagine. this is something my friends normally don't agree with me on this matter.
never look at a book you don't plan on reading blah blah don't i sound like a con man deepak chopra ....don't, i ,i wish, i was, inexorable, god bless the world.

So what did i do the previous year

i saw Alexander- the movie
something i noticed funny ,suppose i end being this great man whose name resonates through the ages ,and a picture is made in my honour say two thousand years afterwards

suppose i don't marry will i be called gay .......or a bisexsual....
the ways of the world are most amusing
moral of the sotry if you don't desire a woman you are gay
is it!!!
i leave with this though of parting

Sunday, December 26, 2004

Friends and chilly winters

this is my first blog from home,and i am here with a friend who is calling me lukka (vella in IITB lingo)...he is pondering right now on marriage proposals advertisements .A few years early though his adventures.
i read three books during my stay till now
1.made in japan-akoi morita
2.bridge across forever-richard bach
3.alexander-the ends of the earth by valerio manfredi

funny thing about the third book i once told my friend when we were parting after 12th that if he calls me i will follow him to the ends of this earth.
meanwhile i wait for his call tsunami has hit india and south east asia ...
everything in the world is so transient and so fickle
so diverse but united
varun signing out 4om chandigarh

Thursday, December 16, 2004

The return of ...

Home Coming
Tommorow i leave for home ,with hope that i reach home.Journey's are like life ,they are uncertain..Everytime i embark on the journey home,i don't know whether i will be back again .I don't know why but i feel out of place everytime i go home,as if its not mine.It is abtract unclear why i feel this, but i avoid going home.........

Friday, December 03, 2004

###$$$

life is ?????
here it goes zoom..........
i am back to reading again yuppie ,semester project is over finallyoh it was killing me,all the fumes from the soldering,connecting wires goosh!!
i read hemingway during the last week,this week i am back again to fininsh my business with aristotle and kant.
something i require to exercise
Rhetoric is useful (1) because things that are true and things that
are just have a natural tendency to prevail over their opposites,
so that if the decisions of judges are not what they ought to be,
the defeat must be due to the speakers themselves, and they must be
blamed accordingly.

Moreover, (2) before some audiences not even the
possession of the exactest knowledge will make it easy for what we
say to produce conviction. For argument based on knowledge implies
instruction, and there are people whom one cannot instruct. Here,
then, we must use, as our modes of persuasion and argument, notions
possessed by everybody, as we observed in the Topics when dealing
with the way to handle a popular audience.

Further, (3) we must be
able to employ persuasion, just as strict reasoning can be employed,
on opposite sides of a question, not in order that we may in practice
employ it in both ways (for we must not make people believe what is
wrong), but in order that we may see clearly what the facts are, and
that, if another man argues unfairly, we on our part may be able to
confute him. No other of the arts draws opposite conclusions: dialectic
and rhetoric alone do this. Both these arts draw opposite conclusions
impartially. Nevertheless, the underlying facts do not lend themselves
equally well to the contrary views. No; things that are true and things
that are better are, by their nature, practically always easier to
prove and easier to believe in.

Again, (4) it is absurd to hold that
a man ought to be ashamed of being unable to defend himself with his
limbs, but not of being unable to defend himself with speech and reason,
when the use of rational speech is more distinctive of a human being
than the use of his limbs. And if it be objected that one who uses
such power of speech unjustly might do great harm, that is a charge
which may be made in common against all good things except virtue,
and above all against the things that are most useful, as strength,
health, wealth, generalship. A man can confer the greatest of benefits
by a right use of these, and inflict the greatest of injuries by using
them wrongly.

these great words describe something i considered not necessary though after reading ,i inculcated them into my memory

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

Persuasion

During my life i have learnt that to persuade someone is among the most ironic thing to do.I believe in patterns and believe to give logic to most vague of entitites.Madness has been associated with this phenomenon ,but the plebian doesn't understand the non trivialities of life.The idea of being sane is relative to the times we have lived.So how do we persuade someone to buy or sell, to maintain relationships,to develop new ones,what is the strategy.
personally i have ,analysed everything a person does during my first meeting,from the way of standing ..to the way of thinking .the way the person smiles ,which hand he prefers.... ,i am in habit of dissecting personalities.But after analysis of so many varied personalities ,i realise we act differently to situations,our past experiences,our mentors ,our abilties ot limit plays an important role .That there is no truth,except of what we make ourselves believe .
and that there is no analysis of someone ,unless i am analysing my self

meanwhile exams are happening thing on the block

compilers
uml

Thursday, November 18, 2004

Rhetoric

Rhetoric may be defined as the faculty of observing in any given case
the available means of persuasion. This is not a function of any other
art. Every other art can instruct or persuade about its own particular
subject-matter; for instance, medicine about what is healthy and unhealthy,
geometry about the properties of magnitudes, arithmetic about numbers,
and the same is true of the other arts and sciences. But rhetoric
we look upon as the power of observing the means of persuasion on
almost any subject presented to us; and that is why we say that, in
its technical character, it is not concerned with any special or definite
class of subjects.

There are, then, these three means of effecting persuasion. The man
who is to be in command of them must, it is clear, be able
(1) to
reason logically,
(2) to understand human character and goodness in
their various forms, and
(3) to understand the emotions-that is, to
name them and describe them, to know their causes and the way in which
they are excited. It thus appears that rhetoric is an offshoot of
dialectic and also of ethical studies. Ethical studies may fairly
be called political; and for this reason rhetoric masquerades as political
science, and the professors of it as political experts-sometimes from
want of education, sometimes from ostentation, sometimes owing to
other human failings. As a matter of fact, it is a branch of dialectic
and similar to it, as we said at the outset. Neither rhetoric nor
dialectic is the scientific study of any one separate subject: both
are faculties for providing arguments. This is perhaps a sufficient
account of their scope and of how they are related to each other.

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

16th november-Dare you to move

well as usually i overslept, and now have a long night ahead.Welcome to existence
life like that ,sometimes indulging in our fantasies othertimes facing the crude realities of life.Do i dare to move!
everybody is haunted by their past some more than others but we have to keep feeding the past for it to live in the present.Will i stop feeding the past and face the present. i guess we will know in the future
......... of a song i am listening to....
Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistence
The tension is here
Between who you are and you could be
Between how it is and how it should be

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here

Monday, November 15, 2004

Nostalgia

Life has many ways of putting us in situations, we cannot find solutions to.In life i rarely came across something i cannot do, that's cause i am self assured, bold in your face, take everything at its face value.....you must be thinking what a narcissist this person is.
well we human beings are narcissists sadist masochist etc and i feel no shame in acknowledging it.
My real fears come from the my dreams,i used to like a girl long time ago.Crush love i don't really know, all i know she still comes in my dreams ...........
and all my fears come to life, i am unable to face her and even if i gather the courage she ignores me.
Dreams have something to do with what we think in the day,they are a projection of our thoughts........
among the pleasant dreams i had were on 11th night i was dreaming of my friend and he called me as if he knew i was thinking of him.So cool na telephathy yoo babes........

Sunday, November 14, 2004

To kill a mocking bird

The book starts with Scout Finch telling us of her's brother injured arm and her family history.She tells us of a Simon finch her earliest ancestor(here i thought oh! one of those stories where the person tries to glorify the past).oh Simon Finch was a fur trader who esablsed the Finch's landiing outside Maycomb Alabama that is where we are. Her father name is Atticus(he is a lawyer) and her' older brother's name is Jem.It is summer and their neighbor's nephew Dill has come to stay for the summer.
...............
The first few chapters of the book paints Maycomb as a quiet and idyllic town.The children play freely and the neighbours gossip rather harmlessly on the streets.these early chapters set the tone for the a town that is going to be exposed.The lazy rural facade will crumble an racism prejudice that are inherent in the minds of the citizens are exposed.
The book talks about many things among the concepts earliest met is about strength in the face of adversity.The high moral standards defines the character Cunnigham's ,Mrs.Dubrose are potraying.
....................
Scout gets in a fight at school with a boy who says that her father defends niggers. Scout tells Atticus about the fight and asks him what they boy meant. Atticus explains that he is defending Tom Robinson, a black man, and many in the town believe that he should not have taken the case. When someone at school makes a similar comment, Scout heeds her father's advice about fighting, and backs down.
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Christmas arrives, and so does Atticus' brother Jack. On Christmas day Jem and Scout receive air rifles as gifts. After opening presents, everyone goes to Finch's Landing to spend the rest of the day. Scout has to deal with her bratty cousin Francis for most of the day. After dinner Francis calls tells Scout that her father is a nigger lover. Although Scout has been good about fighting, Scout attacks him and demands he take it back. This brings the day to an abrupt end. Scout receives a spanking from her Uncle Jack. She explains to Jack why she started a fight with Francis, and he becomes more understanding.

That evening, Atticus talks to Jack about the case and all of the problems that may arise because of it.
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Dill's parents allow him to stay in Maycomb. One evening, the sheriff stops by the house with a group of men from town. Atticus talks with them and Scout tries to overhear. They talk about Tom Robinson's case and how Tom is being moved into the Maycomb jail.
Tired and upset by the verdict, everyone goes to bed. When the Finch family wakes up in the morning, food has been brought by many of the families in town. Atticus becomes upset and leaves the house.
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The whole town is gossiping about the case. The children talk to Miss Maudie about the case. They are very upset that Tom is going to jail and the town did nothing. But Miss Maudie points out that some people did what they could. She tells the children that Judge Taylor appointed Atticus for a reason; he knew that Atticus was the only lawyer in the town who would do his best to defend Tom.
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When the children leave Miss Maudie, they hear the newest bit of gossip. Bob Ewell ran into Atticus in town, spat upon him, and told him he would get revenge one way or another.
These become the hardest times for the family, Jem in particular. Scout, because of her young age can move on past the events of the trial. But as Jem gets older and wrestles with his maturing feelings and values, most of what has happened only angers and upsets him. When Scout goes to Jem for an explanation about her class discussion, Jem can only become angry. He is not angry because Scout is being inquisitive, he is angry because there are no easy answers to what Scout is asking and he is just as confused as she is.
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The ray of hope for the children comes earlier when they talk with Miss Maudie. Despite the seeming hopelessness of everything, Miss Maudie points out that many people were doing their best to help Tom Robinson. The children may feel alone, but as the gifts of food left at their house indicated, many people were always behind them.
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Helen ton's widow takes a job with Link Deas, Tom's former employer. After being harassed by the Ewell's on her walk to work, Helen has to take the long way to Link's house. When Link finds this out he goes to the Ewell' to threaten Bob. Later, Bob begins to follow Helen.
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One evening, while alone in his home, someone tries to break into Judge Taylor's house assuming it was empty for the evening. All signs point to Bob Ewell.

Due to last Halloween's pranks, the town organizes an evening at the high school for the children. Scout is recruited to be in the evening's pageant, as a ham hock.
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Although Jem and Scout could have died, the incident with Bob Ewell serves as a vindication for the Finch family and their values. Bob Ewell, who the town stands behind during Tom's trial, turns out to be a man so cowardly that he not only stalks Helen Robinson, he tries to kill two innocent children. And the man who comes to their rescue is none other than Boo Radley, a man whose self-imposed exile has made him the prime topic of gossip in Maycomb. It was Atticus and his children who understood these men no matter what the situation may point to. Although the town knew Bob Ewell to be trash, they would defend him over an innocent black man,prejudice so deeply wooled in the minds. It was Atticus who saw the truth and stood by that.Weird the way some would play black and some white others though grey left helpless by time and situation.
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As for Boo Radley, it was Scout, who points out that anyone who saw her walking Boo Radley back to his home would see a real gentleman. Not the man Stephanie Crawford claimed looked into her windows, but a man who came out of seclusion to save two children. We also now know that it had been Boo who was leaving the presents in the tree for Jem and Scout. He has been watching them for many years. Boo Radley is a sensitive and kind man who apparently has had quite an affinity for the children all these years.
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Throughout this entire ordeal, the Finch family has survived. Much has been heaped upon them the past months and years, but all have come out stronger for it, Jem and Scout in particular. They have gained a new sense of human nature and are better people because of it.
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best part
the one liner's
let the dead bury the dead..........

Neigbours bring in food with death and flowers with sickness and little things in between.Boo was our neighbour...........

other than that lots of idioms and allusions used in the text.

Saturday, November 06, 2004

the Glass Ceiling

introduction varun khullar
studying in third year at IIITA- information technology
while in ocassional visits to my classrooom, i actually listen to what the teacher says(why you may ask?) .Realisation of the self contradictory nature of the teacher's pursuit of education is something which i bound to happen.Sometimes i feel the teachers are trying to convince themselves of the notion,that education is about attendance and writing whatever is asked in the half yearly events known as exams even though they think otherwise.
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The soporific phenomenon in al so evident in classes is a disgrace to the concept of learning academia established by socrates ,aristotle,dronacharya etc.Learning was instituted to produce sophists,critics and cynics which are far and few today.And by these words sophists critics and cynics i mean the meaning they carried in yesteyears not the present derogatory one produced by the same corrupted nature of education.What blasphemy is this that words such as cynic and critic are being used in defaming manner.Is this not a sign of of times and the there are no words in which to speak the truth without using them in derogatory sense. Is truth supposed to be bitter
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If this was the sole purpose of education then man would have been in stone age.We are a part of the evolution cycle,progress is not a measure of what has been done in the past but what can be done and has been done today.The books and the teachers cultivates someone else's opinion without any regard to the present scenario.The whole process started as exercise to observe and to extend the possibilties but has turned into a futile exercise of repetetion of facts.Encouragement for originality is a rarity and the whole concept of invention innovativeness etc has become as abstract phenomenon.Am i right in saying we are afraid to think about the possibilties.
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I have passed through under the nose of enough to realise when or not a teacher has not prepared for a class and some years ago i would have mocked them and made sure they do not sleep in the same class they are teaching.The monotonous soforific tone is enough for me. The purpose of education is long lost.
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But i now believe a educator is as good as his beliefs and ethics.If his priorities are mismatched with his or hers beliefs,then noble activity of education turns into consumption without responsibilty.This consumption of resources and wastage of time without giving consideration has transformed our esteemed varsities into future political institutions where the students engage in petty politics(have a look at allahabad universiy and other local universities you are living etc).This further retard the growth of mental and physical development of the person ,community,state,nation and the of the whole human community.
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Everything has turned into glass celing from which we may see the sky but cannot reach it,we can just look at it and wonder whether the story of Icarcus was true
and whether dedalaus was right in warning or whether icarcus was right in flying .
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A thought -
i must study politics and war that
my sons have the liberty to study mathematics and philosphy
so in turn their children can learn poetry,architecture tapestry and porcelain
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Monday, October 18, 2004

one hundred years of solitude

Gabriel Garcia Marquez wrote one hundred year of solitude.
while reading the book i had a thought about the insomniacs- those who cannot sleep in simple terms.Let me englighten those of who are in ignorance about the book.
In the intial part of the story there is place called Macondo, a remote South American settlement.The settlers of Macondo suffer from insomnia and amnesia.
The idea of not sleeping is one thing,but if you tend to lose your saneness, forget who you are,forget whether a tree is a tree,you can very well imagine the consequences.On a more personal note,i think we tend to discount the times when we refuse to believe the first rhethoric of Aristotle, that an A is an A.

So Arcadio the first of insomniacs devises a way around it,he decides to first to label things with a chits ,writing the name of substance on a chit and sticking it on it.It doesn't stop there,then he decides to write pig on a pig ,tree on a tree, so that can remember in the case he forgets it.No, it is not the end but the beginning he further puts a billboard stating the use of the substance.Like coffee is mixed with milk to make coffee,this a ow, cow has to be milked everyday to produce milk which in turn has to be mixed with coffee and sugar to make coffee.Here i decide to take a break from the book and reflect on the ideas of Arcadio, whether necessity really reuires invention.
Does it show that humans have limited capacity of recollection if we think in different way altogether.
I think deeply about it,i think this is where the idea of a dictionary came ,what would you call something if you forgot what's its called.So we decide to group words collect words somewhere in order to name them when and where the need arises.
what an irony today we use dictionary to define out our vocabulary, rather us defining the meaning of words.We have become tools in the face of time,which are controlled by the predefined.I think if we forget everything we have to start all over again,what would we call an A if not an A.
But the basis the idea of idea cannot be regenerated but from the beginning,we would have to be taught about it what an idea means.


Wednesday, October 13, 2004

Sine Qua Non

the essential condition for life .. that is sine qua non
these days i ponder on the existence of life that surrounds us,we tend to loose interest in the very things that makes us able survive.I loose hope like every other person,miss the very semblance that i aspire for and covet.This is my sine qua non which makes me read words which i hardly understand but still plough through,i feel as though i am a ship that just moves thorough the ocean without ever paying attention to what's inside.In the same way i read words of thoughts that i don't hope to think about.
The existence that i am a part of drives my needs, whether it is to learn obscure language as latin,latin cause i feel it is rare as rare as truth is.Though we all think truth is present everywhere and the essence of every thing is the truth it is rare to see its presence in existence.In the same way i feel about latin the essence of western languages which every western language has its basis.
i wish to share my feelings
Writing with two hands makes me feel enlightened,it is takes a lot of out of me to change so drastically ,i am natural left handed but these days i prefer to write with my right hand.Why you may ask,i thought it is right to right with your right hand.Too many rights in a sentence!
It gives me the sine qua non of my life.
the essential condition ,without which not.It gives me hope that when we think there is nothing to interest you there is always something.It gives me reason to live.



Wednesday, October 06, 2004

Sands of Ammon

in sand will i find my destiny, compulsively i search myself for answers
the ideals on which i based my life seem to be lost
there is no virtue left ,i have no honesty left except my word.my word is my honor and that is what i live for...